Year End.

So what am i going to plan for Tonight...
I hope that we the left over Sabahan people in JB manage to set a simple barbecue, knowing that everyone here have extremely financial inadequacy since we couldn't go back to our hometown.

Let's say a pack of chicken wing is Rm30, then Rm 10 for sausages and priceless gathering of the family member for new year...huh...quite cheap for a new year. But who is going to do the suggestioner...erm me! Let see if it happen to be a a little bit merrier new year or the dull null welcoming of 2006 like my 2005 Christmas....

Money! Money! Money! where's my Money~...

Ok This year starting my life in Johore expenditure...hmmm

Income RM
Work salary 500
Dad's provide 2000
Pre-PTPTN Loan 1500
Dad's Provide 300
1st PTPTN Loan 3360
Choir allowance 120
Mobile Phone Trade 50
Total 7830

Expenditure RM
Registration 2000
New Clothes 150
Top Up 200
Aiesecs 250
Transports 500
expensives stuff 2215
KL trip(thrice) 300
Melaka trip 30
Genting Trip 100
food 250
meal 600
books and notes 200
unclassified 600
Total 7395
Balance 435

So what the stuff that I considered expensive?
I had spend some dollars for
1)A Computer...ermmm

Ok this electric brain aka 'Virginio' was actually Rm1700 but after upgrade into better processor and other hardware, It is about Rm1900. It is very useful until now. But i bought it at the eleven hours so only one of my assignment was done with this baby.




2) New shoes

The Dr Cardin shoes costed me Rm90 after discounted. It was so funny-the real price is Rm140, but later when i went to KL 2 months after that I saw It is only RM65 in Berjaya Times Square. ermmm. later on i bought another pair DC brand cost me RM60 after bargaining in Chinese language. But this is a fake DC shoes, i know but it is cool.

3)10 Kg single Dumbell set.
you can't see it! It is only the case. ermm. Since I found out that my body need some work out, I bought this RM60 Dumbell. At first i was so dedicated to build my body (even Lance said he wanted a body like me when he is in my age) but during exam i gradually stopped and no more nice builded protein in me. Ermmm 2006 I'll try my best to work out daily.



4)the Sonico

Nice to show off without regret. A very painful process of making this sonico. It is hard to take care and not everyone knew it and i mostly cover sonico even i was in the washroom. Costed me RM60 after bargaining to the indian tattoo maker with his unclean tools.







5)oh ya one more the UTM suiter....RM45. It was very nice to show off with this suiter especially during th ICG in genting. Ho ho ho!

So I guess overall it is RM 2215...........

What is the unclassified things...
I don't know. ermmm toiletries, comics, piercing, sponsored friend, electrical item registration and others.

Balance
according to the calculation above, I suppose to have RM435. However I only have RM100 in my pocket and RM100 more in my account....RM200. Where is the others Rm235. I couldn't figured out what I had done to my money.

Summary/resolution
I need to control my expenditure. Next year no more expensive stuff. No more trip except cheaper and important visit. No more food, because i won't be bringing my cooker and mini fridge to UTM anymore. Control meal. No more Top Up because I already sold my mobile phone to Chelsea Amanda, my cousin. No more taxi except there are share among friends for the fair. No more expensive stuff as the previous one suppose to be enough already.

I made such resolution because of knowing that I will be only get less than RM2000 for the PTPTN loan. I wonder how much is the registration fees for the 2nd semester. Money! money! Money! Where's my money~...

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well I had count my pointer for this semester... it is 3. Too bad but no regret.
Can't be a first Class Student anymore. Second semester...here I come. gulp!!~

The Boots

Thanks to Audrey who uploaded this pic to her blog and I grabbed it without permission.

this model of Cos-play is my aunt, Auntie Jay. She went back to sabah to celebrate Christmas...Hope you enjoy the trip Auntie Jay.

Focusing on the boots, I designed that boots, well not too proud of this solidly boots. I got the idea from Dota All-stars, the boots of speed (Which cost of 500 gold in that game and very important to escape from being assasinated at the early level.) but to make it look more elegant, i made it double side of laces. With the help of Lance and Louis, I finished them in 4 days.

Not forget to mention about the apparel, it was designed and done by Auntie Vianey. It is passionately sewn by her and it look like she could make a bussines with it. But i could see that the size matter here. Previously, Auntie jay tried it on and she fit it just nice. however, the clothes looked big here. Well Auntie Jay turned thinner in Sabah?

Ya...where the heaven the sword come from...it is suppose to be an archer. ermmm it is still nice and just like the cosplay in japanese anime. The costume represent Queen Nzingha of Matamba But it is very different from the original version(of course lar) yet Auntie Jay Used the profile of Queen Amazon Tin Hinan in respect to the theme of the year Christmas Ancient Royalty. But Both also military Queen and from Africa lorrr....Ermmm now what quizzing me, how far was this costume gone through the competition. After judging the other contestant it is very no hope for this Amazon Queen. ....Sob sob!

Nzingha, Amazon queen of Matamba, West Africa (1582-1663) She was of Angolan descent and fought against European slave traders. She was a very competent military leader

So, I had missed out this 2005 Christmas Celebration (actually from year 2001 to 2005) but at least the boots bring my Christmas Spirit back to Sabah. beware year 2006!!!!!

See more picture on Audrey's Page.

http://www.20six.co.uk/msaudreyc

Christmas??

Nah...
No Christmas for rpoyomega
So many trees so littlt time.
woke up at 1 pm. no church. no more holy day...yet college holiday is over.
Planned to skipped class for one more week.
damn.. no Christmas...I am not used to it.
woke up at 1 pm. straightaway sinned to the others.
Dota-dota dota. until Lance woke up and played together.
My stomach hungry....So KFC with them.
Only eat Rm4.90 fillet. shit. So stupid.
Now dota dota dota for christmas..

Hello

Sad Christmas....Bye all. I am getting sick of myself.

My Result...!?!?!

The check I made was the last day for viewing the result from internet - 5th Dec 2005

Too bad my Laboratory Practical only B+, I thought it was easy to get A for practical, as long as I submit the report. But things are not easy in University.

Next - I felt grateful to get C+ for soil Mechanics, this subject wasn't my favour. Geeting C+ was already beyond my anticipation. But someday I hope I could do better in this important subject.

What I concern most is my calculus result...I wonder why there is no result posted yet. Usually calculus Lecturer do their job immediately after the exam. On the other side of my head say that I didn't get the result because I skipped Calculus Class more than 20% of the attendance, however according to the rules of UTM academics department, if student don't manage to attend class for 80% of the attendance, he or she will not allowed to take exam. But I wasn't told not to take the exam last time, and more over my Survey Engineering result given None and the other one - Survey Practical, TD means 'Tarik Diri' or 'Quitted', so i guess the calculus lecturer haven't updated the result notification in the web yet. Yeah, I did sit for calculus paper and it's totally sucks. So, at this moment I just anticipating for the calculus result haven't been announced yet.

Oh ya this Blog was written on the 9th Dec 2005 at 4 .32 pm - Blogger.com didn't allowed user to change the time entry anymore, So I want to make it true manually....I just chatted with Aunty Diding in yahoo and now waitting for the weather to cool down and Aunty Jay and I will go to Dedap to safe the self-Unstopable Godlike Dota-allstars players, Lance and Louise

More music

So after KL trip, life is even worse though I had the unlimitted internet connection. Very boring. So what I did previously. I watched DVD's, special regard to Princess Mononoke - a very good storyline and Characters but my aunt say she already watched this movie for the 20th times and the whole world already viewed it last time. Well I guess I was too late but I won't mind because at least I had the chance to see the famous Anime.

Other than that - I downloaded a lot of songs. I just started using LimeWire to download. It is easier to find audio or video source using this download manager but my friend, ajax - said it is vulnerable for sprware to do it's spying job on my computer. But I still use it, stupid stubborn that what I am.

I had downloaded most Pop Idol songs - Gareth Gates, Will Young, Kurt Nilsen, Kelly Clarkson, Ruben Studdard, Fantasia Barrino and also some other songs from Westlife, Il Divo, Mariah Carey, Stefanie Sunand more, Illegaly.

I want to mention Westlife new album the song "When You Tell Me that You love Me" featuring Diana Ross. Hooh! I amazed by Mark voice...He sang out high note, I wasn't sure wether it is Falseto or real voice. He also sang sharply to the note and surprisingly Shane only back up singer.

My Game! Urgh...I began to be a procrastinator.

I went to KL

So much to say...I just post this pic.

If I had time I'll write about the trip.

So Im Back...Where had I been...

it started witht the business of helping Aunty Jay and her sons to move to Aunty Flocy's House. i could see both of her sons are not willing to help in any work especially when their mom ordered them. I was thinking that wether the sons was so lazy or the are not ready to moved yet. well the process of moving only took 2 days. Now I am in Aunty Flocy's house for the rest of my holiday.

Is it Saturday...Oh Gosh I forget the day....

So today I woke up very late (12.30 pm) because I sleep very late (6.30am). My computer can online already after I message Kenny to ask for aid to fix my connection setting...

Today I woke up and chatted with Suzanne and Aunty U-nga(Don't know the real spelling). They are now at Houston, Texas. They seem enjoy during the Thanks Giving Celebration. I also chatted in Yahoo Messenger with Aunty Flocy she suggested Aunty Jay to go out at Dedap to eat Pan Mien...so I joined.

Just now, Aunty Jay and I went to Aunty Flocy house. Aunty Flocy, Aunty Jay and I went out to Dedap and Giant supermarket...Nothing fun there... really!

well I am planning to write my blog about my game Project. i am planning to create a RPG 2 d game... So, I 'll write the progress here.hope I could my game completely.

This is my game making screenshot...I am using RM2k3 program to make it.

My computer...problem

I am onlining at Cyber Cafe right now or also better known as the second house of my Uncle and my cousin(Lance and Loius)-they'll spend 60% of the whole day in CC as long as they got money, where did they get the money? somewhere inappropriately compare to a normal life. I went to CC because my computer down want to start...


When I first bought my computer, I hate it because the quality and the usage weren't in my expectation. But then after complaining, the dealer promise to upgrade it with few cost to ful fil the requirement of a good PC...so spend for RM225, I could have my mother board change from the unknown Perx to Gigabyte type, Both Cd Rom and Cd-R rom were change to DVD combo, my CPU was change from the Stupid bad tempered Intel Celeron D 2.53 Ghz to the bright cool AMD Sempron 2800++ with 1.62 Ghz frequency. Also I had my memory changed from 256 mb and 126 mb ddr 266 which equal to 318 mb ddr 266 to the famous and favorite 512mb ddr 400 double sided ram...huh....satisfied.

My computer at UTM...Haven't change anything yet... So lousy...and my room was so messy

But the problem comes again, the computer will restart by itself- autorestart after I played for more than an hours...especially when I played computer games. I didn't contact the dealer until i came back from UTM after my exam. But it come to the worst part when last night, a pop up from microsoft website inquire me to update some file of my window....well why not?

But then when I restart my computer after finished installing, there it go....the computer keep of cycling itself....it auto restart without reaching window...waaaaahhhh.

So I contacted the dealer...Kenny a good chinese guy but speak english to me. Now "Virginio"(my computer name) is at the XP computer cyber cafe for reformatting....sobx sobx sobx relax virginio, I know you can do it....Hope the problem will get fixed forever.

Another A....????

I thought I would not survive in UTM for this semester. Just now Aunty Jay asked me for Aunty Flocy House Address. I couldn't find the paper from my stake of unorganized stuff that I brought from UTM to this house of cold war. As an alternative, I search my biodata from my Univesity database on the internet...yeahhh I found Aunty Flocy address because she is my guarrantor in UTM and her info is in my fail of UTM database. So after telling the address to Aunty Jay...I checked what's news. There's nothing new actually except the exam result

it was quite interesting and convinient when I could checked my exam result just through the internet. By God Love..I got another A...for english. the weigh for english is 2 it is quit helpful...but my Computer programming, I got A-. Heaven why minus. Last time I checked the noticed board of Mr. Rosli(a computer programming lecturer) Office, I still believe what i saw. It was printed there I got A. Not A-. Ok then I shouldn't mad because this result just my luck. I didn't work hard. Anyway I still concerned my other subjects result......

Oh dear....

Beauty contest?! For the girls, it is very interesting but to attempt it only those who had the strong self confidence could make it. Talk about my family members, I think they are crazy about it. well if you follow my blog, I wrote a lot of Aunty's name here...means I had a lot of Aunties. Get the clue... This is the pic of Miss Malaysia 2002. This is the pic of Miss Malaysia 2002.

So what? the first runner up was her

Audrey chong the Miss Sabah

An old news but still fresh staying on my family's mind.

"First runner-up Audrey Chong, 18, our proudly Sino-Kadazan Miss Sabah, was also prettily dimpled, but hers came from being bitten in the face by a dog at the age of three. And still she grew up with the kind of looks that make people forget to breathe for seconds at a time."

Dog bite on the face? i had heard it it before. But I don't think the dog bitten enshape the beauty.

"Audrey was my personal favourite, admittedly because she wanted to be a journalist, which meant of course that she was the smartest of the lot and the crowd favourite too. But, as my fellow judge Betty Brohier murmured after we'd handed in our scoresheets and were free to share our thoughts: "She's only 18. Give her a year or two." So this year's Miss Malaysia, by a split decision but without doubt (and as I'd predicted to the guys in the car pool) is Miss Penang, Mabel Ng Chin Mei."

Age was the matter here? So what the use of rules. She was qualified and that's the rules...Why she couldn't win the title? What's wrong with 18? Inexperience? Immature? What does she meant by give her a year or two? Did the chance come anytime....aren't we taught to grab the chance as soon as we get it. Why have delay... But undeniably...Mable is pretty too and qualify to be entitled Miss Malaysia 2002.

"At 24, Mabel's the managing director of three companies employing a total of 70 people in skills training, cosmetics, and beverage distribution, whose "greatest satisfaction" comes "when you're able to manage everything, create a good system and retain staff"."

My aunties said Audrey and Mabel almost look alike...beauty twins? Yet she is experienced in managment.

"And she looks like a swan-necked angel."

that's all

OK...so, all were just a past time memory...what about now.

Audrey is studying in Auckland, New Zealand. final year maybe. Ok lar I am getting tired to write about her....I know her much more but don't dare to write... Here's her blog address

http://www.20six.co.uk/MsAudreyc/

Ok then. Oh ya forget to tell you guys the unimportant things...She my cousin....

UPSR

I had write three paragraph today but suddenly my computer auto restart...huh..have to narrate and type everythings back. I woke up very late to day almost 3.30 pm and desperatedly got up when I know that i had received a message from Aunty Flocy. An urgent inquiry of Aunty Jay IC's number, I wondered why? However the message was delivered to me since 10.30am. I asked by phone call Aunty Flocy wether she still need it. Well she ensured it and and told me it is required for the flight ticket booking. So it is settled without any matters after that as I asked Aunty Jay whom was onlining that very lame just after rainning afternoon.

Then I used the mineral water which I bought last night to brush my awaiting smelly teeth and wash my oily just waken face. Heaven then you must be wondering why was I using the mineral water. This house water supply had been disconnected for some dillema reason. It is not they can't afford it but just some other reason. It is better to used the clean but expensive spritzer mineral water because yesterday I used the rain water. While it fall, I raise my open face up palm to capture the clean naturally disstilled water (a bit chillie sauce of scientific for a french fries of literature) and wash incompletely unsatisfiedly unenoughly of liquid to my face and mouth. I also take some of the water from the drain to get more water. I really hope I am ok. right after that I began to online...I tried Yahoo messenger for the first time and use the voice chat. I chatted with Aunty Jay who was actually just right next to my left and also with Aunty Ann who was still in office hour working(I think she had some free time). Aunty Ann informed me that Cindy(a girl cousin mix Dusun and Sino Kadazan) her daughter got only 1 A in Malay Language comprehension and C's for the other four for her UPSR.

Well I guess it was because all of her daughters name started with letter C. She said it was a medium result and it was ok. She also continued with Chaston(a boy cousin mix Thai and Sino Kadazan) result which she was inform by Aunty Yeeyin 2B, 2C, and 2D (I think I miss one more). And lastly Ashley get 2A's and I forgot the others. Overall I'm quite twisted, is UPSR getting tougher? I still remember mine was tremendously dissapointing to myself and my unseen dignity. I only get 2 A's (English Language and Malay Language Comprehension), 2 C's(Science and Chinese Language Composition), and what frighten me so much that time was my 2 D's result (D is failed for UPSR) which I got for Malay Language Composition and Chinese Language Comprehension. One more was Mathematics, where was it? what was the result? I never know. It never come out. We'd been told that the paper lost and it was founded and they needed time to checked it. Huh! what a tragedy, but this wasn't the main factor that worried me. The Chinese Language was no big deal but Malay Language...! Because according to the unfair and unconsiderate ministry of education, those who failed the national language in UPSR from non-malay school have to sit for Removal Class...yes I cried almost every second for the first three months during removing class in my secondary school. So, there was I, spending one precious year in the removing class. Too much to say...better stop.
This is the photo when I first reach Aunty Jay's House at JB...Everyone seem very happy. Is it truely happy

Another thing was I sang in Yahoo messenger and asked my audience to judge my voice. I sang Flying Without Wings but only the first verse. Aunty Jay gave me 6/10 but Aunty Ann can hardly hear my voice. I sang few times but no use.

My stomach is very hungry in this crissis house...God please help us...! may this problem solve immediately...i understand what is happening in this house but don't dare to talk about it...I just ask for you tenderness, your generousity to give use the holy spirit to overcome the cissis in the happy suppose to be family. May Jesus Christ hear my prayer. Amen

My First Post

So this is my first post in my Aunt's house using my own computer....so my computer is first time connected to the internet here. so I online lorrr.

I am in my Aunt's house now...nothing to do. Here got trouble but I still want to stay here...I wanted to see and help if i could...I don't want to talk about it...

what's my plan for semester break...first I'm going to find a job. To cover up next semester fee..I still don't know how much is the fee...hope it is cheap...

This is the last photo taken at my friend's room...that guy is Dee... a good friend.

my last post from UTM for this semester

@My Last Post....
This would be my last post to my blog from UTM network because the semested had come to end...I have to get out off here and waited for the next semester.

@My last exam...
Soil Mechanic...killed me...I am dead now...I didn't sleep last night for I study the whole chapters but useless because last minute don't work in Univercity, the question was changed to a bit higher level...but I still hope to get at least 2.00 point for soil mechanic...

@My VB result...
I predicted that VB result must had been out at the lecturer notice board because the final exam result for Applied Mechanic which thought by the same lecturer had come out...after the the cold war on snow breezing soil mechanic exam I went to check it out...a lot of students was there too...

850617125171 A

I couldn't see clearer so I checked again, now with wide eyes opened...

850617125171 A

congratulation to myself...I got A for Computer programming subject just as what I hope and only could anticipate for.

@Going back
so I'll go back to my Aunt's house...for the Holiday...actually I had Aiesec conference-NLDS...But I wanna cancel it though I already paid RM90 for the registration...I don't care what I want is to rest for the whole day of my U break...

Done...

I had done with all Jimmy's task for me...the last one, I think was a bit stupid and troublesome..it happen like this...Jim asked to pass the Cd and Dvd to his friens at church...but I somehow I didn't go for prayer...then I received a messages from the person whom suppose to received the stuff asking where am I? I couldn't reply because i credit had reached it's expiry date...the next day which is today...I messages from jim that seem to push me to do the passing Cd Dvd faster...but I just relaxed and didn't reload my phone credit yet....then Eirin the girl whom I supposed to passed the stuff with SMS me...when can you passed me the cd? twice...huh...i had to reply this time....If she was smart that time, she would have tell me the place to meet and settle it...but she didn't...I thought if someone didn't reply you it mean he or she don't have valid credit...so I had to waste my money...ermmm...we met at Arked Meranti and everything done............well done Gerard. I told Jimmy and he replied I would get my salary in the next Sem....huh....why? am I his employee..no Jimmy....it is about sincerity heheh....so I replied -huh...no need lor...god bless you....(something like that). Ben really didn't come back...so I messages him to remind him to e-mail me the photo...hope to get my super-posing picture...hehehe(I laugh mimicking Tony-tony Chopper who immitating the doctor ways of laugh in one piece anime)......

I helped Jimmy. Where is Ben! My last coming Exam!

I woke very late just now...where it was 11.30 am but I wanted to stay relax...then I realized that I had procrastinated Jimmy's Errand to me which I supposed to settle down yesterday...but i didn't because I feel very bad about my Calculus exam and I had no mood to be good, I didn't go to church as well......
(Picture left: Jimmy...He is a good guy...very good.)

So, I went to his room which were unoccupied since yesterday because he already went back to his hometown...I started by carrying two medium size heavy boxes and one medium size luggage....carried them one by one to a store which is situated about 400 m from the room....I sweat a lot and easily tired cause I hadn't get any of my meal yet I only had some biscuits for last night meal. I helped him to registered his stuff and upsed his money he gave me last time to pay for the fee to keep our stuff in that store...Next i helped him to confirm the check out document at our college office...Luckily both store and office still opened...

So last on e was to passed the CD's and DVD's to his friends...later....lorrrrr haha. I hadn't reload my phone so I can't contact them...Jimmy keeps remind me about this task well he promised to CHIA me...meant to spend me...hehe....

No I m in the library writing this...Ya.. what the heaven happened to Ben...from Singapore...he didn't contact me...he supposed to stay one more night with me last night but he didn't come...I guess he felt boring in my place...well he had his right....I think he is on his way now back to KL...I just hope that he will send me the photo from his Digital camera....

Today I hoep to revise Soil mechanic to get ready for tomorrow exam...final and last exam then I'll go back to my aunt house....Good Luck to my self

Calculus

As what I already mention... I didn't study for the whole night...and the outcome is I couldn't answer the Calculus question. too bad but serve. I didn't study earlier...

Ben Patrick did a what he pacted without a trick

So Ben Come to visit me...noe or I shoud've just sayhe drop by for two night and went to Singapore for an world games event. So later than he said. to make everything short...He seem to be no changes at all...his voices are still the same...He is a big Dota player...One day I'll make him meet my cousins...just to stop him from prouding himself...This big nosed boy seem to be a little bit thinner that before I think he did a lot of games.

So what He brought me 4 good CDs...this rhino look alike boy are predictable sometimes. japanese songs...cool at least i'll some source about the Japs Entertainment industry...He introduced me Bitorrean...somehintg like that. It is utilised extremely good in downloading. i'll make sure myself to use that program...

Oh ya ... Ben and i had our night at Jimmy's room because I don't want to disturb Brendan...and Jimmy actually going back soon. Ben brought his Sony 4,++megapixel digital camera...Jimmy help me in my photo shoot session...cool but I only can see two of the pictures are nice...hope Ben could email me those pic....hehe...thanks to both of them....

well what Ben comment about me....Damn him he asked why did I write a blog...a diary type of blog...ya... he is right. Perhaps I should have change them into a project or self progressing type of blog..ok cool with that Idea. Next he openly said that I seem to be like a gay....shit..This week two of my friends said that to me...Shit. Just shit...I don't know what to say...

Then Jimmy gaves me some errand to do...too many but I think got to handle them now...

my soil mechanic carry mark

so i just checked my soil mechanic carry mark...huh ...only about 37/50. damn I have to work harder...for my next week soil mechanic final exam...
I woke in morning very late today...Im so lazy.How am I going to get better...

my previous primary picture in Friendster...I wanna to show my new hair style but I got terrible comment from my friend Jimmy... He said I look like Gay.....Damn it.. I don't even know...Does he had a good Gaydar...

Now I change already ... Hoho.

I dreamt ghost last night

I was sleeping at almost 3 because i can't due to overslept on the previous night...Sleep-sleep..
suddenly I dreamt something dark place...I saw like my family members like my brother and my elder sister....then suddenly my sister face slowly become frightening...teribble...actually still the same, she wasn't turn into something but her eyes keeps staring at me and it become bigger and darker eyedlid....huh, to my desperation I can't move nor scream....I try to fight few times....force myself to move but fail...suddenly i woke up and scream twice...not so loud larrrr. then I looked at my roommate in the dark, he was still asleep..huh luckily...then I laugh and get myself back to sleep and didn't remember what i dreamt after that. Actually, i like such dream, hope to dream such horror again.

The beautiful photo....

Like what My aunt described before...the little Huminodun and her little aunty.
Well this cute baby...(I think so much that they are cute). if you don't-Get lost...The standing one is Lora(the aunty) and the still milk baby is Jill(the Huminodun). they are the future mischievious children of the family after the previous generation--the previous one supposed to be the group of children after me....for example...Chaston, Cindy, bext, casey,and others....Hehe. Then before that I proudly admitted that my generation----Me, Izaac, Alex, Idel, Gideon, Norbert, Gilda, Bella, Ivan, Audrey and CC....too much memory...hope it stay on my mind forever...especially the things I like.

Model Pictures....

The two model that never forgotten by me....hehe......too good




















Kevin an embeded model of Man Hunt....and Tyra Bank, Hostess of America's next top model

Tuesday...2 more papers to go...

I checked out Tina~ friendster shout....She wrote....5 more papers to gooOOoooOO...something like this...wow she got a lots of exam to be done...she told me before she got 8 papers...Good Luck to You Tina...

so Im in the library, typing my blog...actually i help dee to get some wedding mdidi. becasue she will be playing guitar for a wedding ceremony in his church don't know when......a bit help for him to get the idea of what is a wedding song like...

study...study...not so bad truly....but i just study/revise the basic....

change for my blog, i already submitted for friendster blog but i'll on ly write about friend in there.

my new hair style.. you can't see the shape here...but it is real punk or Beckham style

My new hair...not really new... it is almost one week already... I like it...it cost me RM20 for it...but to0 stylish- Beckham style... well at least people say it is cool, smart, wow....or something like that. but I dont have eanough gel to keep it in shape...wahhh gotta study...

So it is Nov...exam and Holiday...

Im quite busy. so I'll probably submit blog more seldom...til then

Brian and I-Hotmailing

rpoyomega@hotmail.com replied
Thanksss....
I feel u are the great. but u r far.If u r near, I'm sure I wont let my self bullied.anyway, after reading ur Long msg, I have to be strong. my comp.

I actually tried to solve themit is easy. I went to my aunt (Aunty Angie- the onewho sell me the computer if you remember my blog lar)so, complain everything, then she came with the computer technician then they said they want to change everything. today at 5.30pm it suppose to be done already. what most important I change to AMDSempron 3000-if I was not wrong. I think it good.Like urs AMD. Now we have same brand of 'Electric Brain'

About my friend, I finally speak out what i don't like.It Great though my coward mind feel guilty and regret they never took any advantage already. haha. satisfied.

Wah u work! good I never thought u are goin to work.It is surprising. As b4 ur parents won't allowed u.i've been a food runner, waiter, beverage runnersales assistant, and I think im very good in them..Because I had a good attitude. To make it short I also know u also can do it because lokyukian have.that value..hadrworking, follow the time and initiative.I wonder how would you looked when you wearing the shop uniforms. must be smart right... i hope u'll work long there cause i confirm will go to selangor at the end of Nov Until earliy of Dec.

Hey you didn't mention anything about the videoclip that i asked...I understand lor, if you don't want to give. it is ok. but I also want to make a good one,using my computer lor..

Well I still remembered used the word 'unplug' last time to refer to our(me teck u) friendship...now u used it then again. u are great man. Ok then I need to go.


>From: brian chia <bctk0617@yahoo.co.uk>>
To: "gered j.jf" <rpoyomega@hotmail.com>>
Subject: Re: Short message>
Date: Wed, 2 Nov 2005 06:34:18 +0000 (GMT)>>

Hi , read a bit about your blog, so you are not>satisfy with your com. come on lah, nothing is>perfect, my com also hang what.but what you can do is>to maintain your com and get rid all the junk inside>your com. for what? to make it run faster of course.>always make sure to run disk defragement and disk>clean up . they can make your com faster, and delete>or uninstall those program that you never or dont>really need. well keep it in the com also useless>what. still can install it when needed. and your>fucking friends who always take advantage on you, just>unplug them( dont make friend with them) what for have>a friend that only what benefit from you. if you are>in trouble , see if they willing to help. there are>plenty of people outside there that you can make>friend and help each other, if you can not manage them>, tell me , i try to come to utm and kick their ass.>but im sure you can manage it, we come so far from>sabah ,where can let them bully us. kampate ok!!!!!>anyway im working in mid valley now, as a food server,>part time but very challenging, as it is>a very luxurious restaurant, its name is chilis bar>and grill. take care ok , keep in touch.

"gered j.jf" <rpoyomega@hotmail.com> wrote:
Hola....Salamat for your message ok...
I didn'teceived any msg from otherss
then all of a sudden....YOU
OK then keep it easy lor
you finished ur exam already..Enjoy
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you haven't visit my Blog right!?
now you have time...com'on
http://www.greatgerard.blogspot.com/
You'll know how's my life...Idup or mati...Matee
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Give me the video clips you had made...
why? is it copy right...
or you don't like the urself acting inside it.
Come on! I Won't let other people see.
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May Jesus Bless you bye...

From: brian chia <bctk0617@yahoo.co.uk
To: "gered j.jf" <rpoyomega@hotmail.com>
Subject: Re: smiling Gerard. Don't comment.
Date: Mon, 31 Oct 2005 13:42:38 +0000 (GMT)

hi, masih hidup kah, ha ha , i dont know what to say
should say good luck in your exam, i just finish exam,
very happy, ok, when you wan to visit me , tell me k.
take care, and sorry for the short text. cos i lazy to
type(too honest)


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revision and Hari Raya celebation holiday...........Nothing much to me except i';ll be having more rest.

The Holiday had started...i felt very boring...Though I should've study for my final exam but i don't have the will to study. last week I went to KL to regain my motivation from my most trusted friend but it was useless cause I don't actually change...I still very felt bad and unlucky about my computer...I was thinking that i am very stupid in any decision I made this year...I didn't think Hundred times before i made a move...i could list the mistakes I had done what the use of the list...!

My computer

What I did previously...i played games...my computer cannot support any games and too much applications in the same time. i don't think it worth to pay +/- RM1700 for a stupid computer like mine...I always need to restart like every hour i need to restart because it hang all the way when I just started to get exited about my computer...so I just use the computer to listen to music-westlife(the only potion of enhancement to make my computer a little bit and a little bit and a little bit useful), read comic- a soft copy which i bought during Matrics...I did used my computer software Window Movie maker to make some stupid clip entitled the stupides boy...It's boring...no one in this world-I think would ever touch such program during their free boring time...I'm the worst.

Food...I'm the stupidest guy in the world because i don't have any courage to stop other people from taking opportunities on me...in term of food...I got my mini useful fridge, rice Cooker-can cook other meal also, and a water heater...except the water heater the others two are illegally brought and use in my room...I bought my stock like

1 chicken sausage 6 packets (rm12)
2 5 star chicken Bolona (rm 7)
3 3 Dozen egg (RM6)
4 can Food (RM18)
5 Fish Ball(RM4)
6 Soup Powder(RM10)
7 a pack of biscuit(rm4)

total more or less rm61...

That's what I remember and I had shared with Dee who wants to eat together...So, the cool product are stacked in my mini refrigerator and the other in my locker...that's not the problem ok...Actually I cook rice almost everyday...depending on my mood and time and also my stomach. But my roommate always ask for food...and also Dee roomMate Erik-the most uninteresting person on earth...It's ok for sometimes but everytimes is too much...one more thing I don't like my roommate-Brendan to use my spoon especially when I just started to eat and Erik the most uninteresting person on earth always ask water from me-I mind about water cause it is hard for me to got to the office of my college just to take filter drinking water from the water dispenser-I don't to drink my hoster toilet water, the smell bad and has the chlorine taste...Well they think i am the utm orphanage room founder? no way.....They have more money than me cause they got JPA scholarship. they ought go outside eat...they just lazy...As for Dee I don't mind cause he is trusted and had share upon the food...Damn...the Fasting month really get me mad. One day I'll fight back mentally and get their emotion disturb because I had mentally disturb now...seriously...

One of my friend from selangor will be coming to my place...Ben...He want to drop by as he is going to Singapore for The world Games...I forget the title of the fucntion already...he message me three times to assure that he could stay with me but I don't reply! The reason is I also had asked him wether I can stay with him or not if I went this December but he never replied...serve you better Ben...but i am not that bad, i'll reply as soon as i reload my phone...but i'll delay it...

This holiday, i decided to study...study and to master calculus and soil mechanics...I hope I'll do it...

Im getting tired of myself...

^Tina^- I felt myself are getting tired of her...she always excused when i wanna play SMS with her.

I already confessed to her that I like her in SMS. She told me, she likes me as a friend...but nothing much happen except she began to reply my messages more frequent than before...

the truth is I'm easily get bored to things...but i hope I won't this time....Or maybe im the one who get tired of myself.

What happenned to me??????

Now Im sitting in my room typing this...ya I got new PC desktop. actually i hate my desktop....I think im the stupidest human in the whole world who always make decision without ensuring that i wont regret it one day. Well I think everything i do should be a mistakes. I don't want to talk about it....I'll keep in my mind. I hope that I won't have to keep the hatred to myself for such problems for a very long time or else i'll suffer.

~I hate to talk about my Desktop, so i really hope anyone of my friends won't ask me about my desktop...or else i'll lied...What I lied to my friend...Teck and Brian please forgive me...message me if you forgiven me and understand the condition of the boat i'm standing in. So i said to them I had a RM 1700 new PC destop with Intel Pentium 4 3.0Ghz instead of telling the truth which is intel Celeron D 2.53 Ghz...

this was the point why I lied to you guys...got one time when i met them in KL...Teck asked me about Jeffrin...I told him nothing much and also i mention that he bought a new Laptop with Celeron Processor...when he heard that he laughed because of the word Celeron...He thought Jeffrin was stupid for buying Celeron...but the most annoyed person was me...ok, I deserved this...so I just lied him...to hide my stupid Desktop and also to take care of my dignity. Brian also asked me the price of my PC...when he heard RM1700 he said it's waste so I just lied him that it is pentium 4 to calm everything...by the reaction of my most trusted friend, i know I made a big mistakes...but actually i knew it from the beginning, Im sorry dude...sometimes I feel the comfortable lie is better than the hurt truth...both of them had bought Laptop, Teck with his RM4288 laptop but i forget the processor maybe intel Pentium 4 2.8 Ghz and brian rm2000 plus for an AMD sempron...both are powerful computer...They bought laptop because they wont be spending the four or fives years in University as teck will move to ha hospital in the third year and Brian will go to German in 2007. Actually with my price of Desktop i suppose can challenge their computer easily because the fact that desktop is more powerful that laptop...again I feel so stupid....

Next is 512 mb RAM instead of the 384mb Ram...Then a DVD combo instead of two BenQ cd rom (weren't this stupid) but one is CD-RW...also, I said I had no graphic cards but actually I had which is useless one call ASUS and I don't have any idea what the magnitude of it's power or memory...That's what i lied...but to complete my statement about the truth of my computer is it have a Dell 17" monitor...(they forget to enclosed the power cable together with this product so I had to buy my self RM12- cow's Shit! i could eat three days for that amount of cash...) then Samsung Optical Mouse and Samsung Keyboard...(I don't think I need such branded accessories, they had nothing for me to proud of..what samsung but for mouse and keyboard-man was like the dumb ass butt hole...) and one stupid speaker that I think the noise that it made had broken my dignity in front of my friend...My CPU is PERX- i don't know what the hell brand it come from...I also have the useless Floppy drive...I won't use it...never because I don't need it anymore...everyone is using USB Thumb Drive. The CPU have a lot of USB (I don't know what to call it.) But that don't measure as a good computer is it?...I know...

so it is clear that my computer is the useless one...maybe those who don't understand would say "it's ok larrr as long as you have one." hey before you said that to me, you better think twice because I'll make thou mute forever...know why i dare to do that? because I can't even play games...my purpose of buying computer is to get myself up to date upon the Games World, I don't want to be stupid like before but now I had become one...and forever...I guess...but I hope God will help me...another things is the benQ CD-rom is not responding well to my CD...damn and i never use the CD-RW...(I asked for the CD-RW but I didn't use them-stupid isn't it?) The CPU get hot easily in the short time....and sometimes when i open music files with winamp or other files, it'll hang.............

Well i'll stop the craps...let me write something nice and memorable...I went to Kuala Lumpur Last Weekend (14-16 october) to visit my friends- Teck Fui and Brian Chia. I took a bus to go there and it took my RM 25 and also 4 1/2 hours to reach there. I reach Pudu raya and few mintes after that i was fetch by Teck Fui and Christine. They brought me to Sungei Wang to eat my dinner as they already had theirs. Christine looks very cute as before. I observed that they are a really happy couple-without sexual intercourse between them.(Teck told me lor...) but what I know they were both my good friends. Then we went to Christine hostel(apartment) in IMU to bring her back and me and teck continue back to his U and we took LRT for both journey. then ,We took UPM bus and I wear his roommate matric card to pretend myself as a UPM student and that's the best way I could go back to UPM by the university bus. We take away our supper from the food court of UPM (small one) before we went Teck's room. I met Joshua - teck's Roommate, the nerdy, doctor to be, Johorean boy. Nothing much we do that night just sharing stories and play Need For Speed Underground 2...and I knew few things about Brian from Teck Fui.

The next day we went to Mid Valley after we fetch Christine at I forgot the road...Nothing Much at Mid Valley...Christine had her shoping "unspree" buying food and daily necessities at Carrefour. We also called Kenny Yapp and Jeremy Dean to come with us but only Kenny can come. He was a very nothing change person. we go around Mid Valley and it's quite boring...We had our lunch there - a Chicken Pot rice...RM 5 each person without beverage. Ok lar the taste good lar but the chicken pieces were almost bone.

Then we went to Berjaya times Square...Nothing much over there but I'm interested to the playground at the highest floor-they seem have a Roller Coster but i didn't play. Another thing is the Wet-Wet Shop-a few sexual toys are sold there. Pretty Arousing fo me whom I think myself have a great sexual desire.

Our next destination was the Low Yat Plaza- a computer plaza. everything is bery cheap and a lot of promotion. Seeing the price and the ability of their products makes me hate more to my Computer...It is a big crowd there, I lost my friend few times, but handphone is very easy. Ohh ya I forgot to write that I just bought a new...new battery for my old but very useful and understanding phone for RM 25 without warranty. Nothing much in Low Yat Plaza except the digital devices.

It is almost 4pm when Christine wanna make her way back to hostel. teck accompanied her along and I did say Good Bye a very important word cause we'll never gonna meet again for a very long time. So left me and Kenny, we went to Sungei Wang to wait for Teck to come back and also Brian to come...He was having his Practical at JMI.Teck come back earlier and we find Tomb Raider Game pak but it was very hard to find one and the price is not fair, RM45 and the shopper dare to admit that it is original. Holy cow, he is not gonna fool me. We met brian at almost 5.30pm. as Brian went to a wrong place. Haha...

Then we had our Dinner at one Chinese stall. Nice and quite chear. We shared everything...Before this teck told me that Brian had a girl friend already and he isn't a virgin anymore...damn, I was so left far behind. but Brain never mention his girlfriend...Perhaps he don't trust me and Kenny... ahhh who care. but the fact is fact that I never move a step further than Teck Fui and Brian...Kenny isn't in my list. As from Brian story he is very success in almost everything he had done.

we had a walk at KLCC...just walk cause everything was very expensive...We had a break at Burger King of KLCC. The nice things over there is you can refill your drink anytime and many times as you can take. So we drink a lot. Then we walk again. I saw a small stall selling a cute Teddy Bear...I was about to buy for ^Tina^ but I don't think I can't affod to buy a small teddy bear with cost of RM15. Over all, at KLCC is very boring if you walk with someone who is very economical. There's a lot of Coffe Bean Shop there...

From KLCC we took a bus to Petaling Street...they said it's a horrible place where you can see a crowd of bad people selling fake stuff and pirated DVD...Brian Said he wanted to buy a DVD to watch tonight...I thought he mean a Pornography DVD because what can you expect from a young man mind...but I was wrong because he choosed a scary story DVD- The Cave...for RM 8. But I still think he actually wanted the Porn DVD but he didn't dare to ask because we didn't support him from behind when dealing with the Chinese DVD pirate. After that Kenny left us with a good bye...He actually fail in matriculation last time, Now he's taking Foundation again in a private Education institute-UTAR.

now the Problem for the 3 of us...Me, Brian, Teck Fui...We didn't have bus to go back to UPM.(Brian also planned to stay at Teck Fui room for a night) so after a long wait, we plan to take the LRT, Teck Fui tell the other UPM students who were waiting for bus. But right after that Both teck Fui and Brian run to the LRT station...I just follow...

It is quite thrilling when we pretend ourselve like being chase by something...we took two LRt before we reached the place that i forgot the name. There we find a 7-eleven shop to buy food for supper...I paid the expences because before this both of them paid for my LRT fair. I just wanna be fair.

After that We tried to catch a Taxi...We got one waiting Taxi but he demand for unreasonable price-RM10 instead of the usual price RM5 according to Teck Fui...Both Teck and Brian didn't want. I gave a stupid idea which was walk to UPM. they didn't want neither. The taxi driver lowered the price after a few minutes bargaining but only RM1 discounted. So, the ass hole taxi Driver was not our choices...we just waited and we got another Taxi for RM6. easy...and thank god. I still didn't understand that I could come out with the idea of walk to UPM...It's pretty embarassing for me.

At UPM everything was OK...I used Brian Phone to take my photo few times. We had our bath and right after that we tend to watch the DVD-the cave...but both Teck and Brian were keep busy comparing their laptop. So I just sitting on Teck's bedroom playing with Brian's Phone. After a few hours then they played the DVD but unfortunately it couldn't be played...I kept on reminded them that if we bought a pornography it migh easily can be view for our entertainment tonight...but they just switch to the other old DVD. We had our own supper and abot an hour later I went to sleep because the story was so boring.

The next morning i woke up at almost 10 am and I prepared myself and waited for them to get up...Joshua woke up first and we had a simple snack for breakfast...thanks to him...I never thought that i'll had something to eat that time-and i really need food to recharge myself...At almost 12.30 pm both the bright friend of mine woke up...and they were surprise when they knew the time...We had our lunch at Marry brown which is very near to Teck's hostel and I online there using teck's Laptop. We ordered three burgers and a meal...which consisted of three pieces of chicken, potatoes and salad...it's Salad was very good... but the chicken was unfair as they already asked for breasts but we were given one breast, one wings and a drumsticks. Brian wanna argue but everyonw were cool down after the waiter said the don't fried any breast anymore...Damn them...a sort of stupid lie cannot fooled us but what could we do. so we make a deal, who took the breast will eat less potato and salad...and I was the one.

Unsatisfied, we headed to the food court which a bit far from Teck's room to have our second lunch. But this time we were full after just eaten the half of the meal. i sponsored myself and Teck a can of coke because Brian already bought for himself and teck's ever did the same to me when I first reach UPM (Burger).

after that teck lead us to the bus stop before we parted and Brian and i were on the way to KL...in the bus I got Ben's Phone's no. i did chat with him. I hate to chat with those who already forget a friend because he cheated me few times...but I might use this boy one day...

In KL, Brian straightaway brought me to the Petaling Street for me to buy a new sport shoe. I got a fake one with the price of RM60 after much bargaining and i spoke chinese to gain hospitality of the chinese sales assistant...He kept on confriming me that it is a good one...but what i knew was it's a fake DC brand shoe. I actually didn't want to buy but i can see Brian was in rush, so i just wasted my RM60 for the uninterested shoe...I am stupid all the time.

Then, we went to Pudu Raya and i bought a ticket. I got a 6.30 pm departure...so we still have a lot of time. Brian waited for about half an hour before he said good bye to me...I was alone waited for the time to come...It is very hard to know the bus so I kept on asking and during the time a man shouted "Johor-JOHOR". Then he asked for ticket...I gave him my ticket. I saw one chinese girl with her Chinese boyfriend who were actually keep on wrapping hadn on each others. So they don't give the ticket eventhough the asked from them. I didn't care much about them...Then the man asked us to move to outside to get the bus...I wonder it must be the Traffic Jam that causes all passengers had to move to the bus instead of the bus stopped at the terminal. I got a sit with a nice view but i and no one sit with me...
a few short moment after that, the chinese girl i mentioned just sat beside me because no more other seat. then one man who seem like the bus conductor asked the man who was shouting just now "is it she?" then the man replied "yeahlah". Then I understand this stupid easily untied loop.

The journey me almost 5 hours...i kept my attention to the road because i was afraid that I might passed Skudai Parade then i'll more for cab.
I asked the chinese girl beside me about the route by talking Chinese...I asked it too early then...I actually have to wait until we reached the toll plaza before I should asked the Driver to stop. I thank her few times lorrr...

At Skudai Parade, I took a Taxi. But the Pirate Taxi didn't want to bring me back utm if not one more people joinning...then a woman who seem like a lecturer also want to go to UTM. So there's the last journey by taxi and a woman. She got down at the 9th college...and I alone with the Taxi Driver...nothing happen actually...we just chat he was promoting about the air ticket that one could easily book from him...when I reached my hostel I asked for his phone number to convince him...I paid RM6 and it was quite cheap compare to the official taxi. Now in my room I can see brendan doing assignment and I can see my healthy but useless computer sitting on my table like waiting for to use him...I played song then

In my room I have to rushed myself to do some VB work... the time was about 11.30pm...i need to passed the file to Jenny at the girl's block and the alarm bell ringing out of manners that night, i saw Sherrina,an indian friend with another indian girl was at the bus stop, she couldn't stand the noise, when i reach there the bell stop, so I was like the bell stopper,i guess!. After passing the pen drive to Jenny, I went back to room and all black out...I called Tina to tell everything...It was not much that night...but i feel that i hadn't feel fulfil by my journey to KL cause all i could see the dark side was more significance...God Please help me....

Test result...

It was bad as i thought because I didn't study for it...For calculus i only managed to get 12.5/25 for test and 30/50 for carry mark...too bad. Soil Mechanic no news but I could make assumption that my 2nd test wont be good...or even medium...English...I got 54.5/60 as carry mark...that's not enough to help my other more important subjects...VB test-computer programming...this is my subject but it's getting tougher as chapter going and I need computer to practice...since i don't have it before so i just borrowed from friend and paid more attention in the class...when I already bought this computer...it was too late because i don't have the chance or I don't make the chance for my computer to be installed the VB program...The test was hard but Im lucky because it is open book test...still it is very hard...so i only confident to get more or less 60/100...I hope for more...Yaaa..VB program assignment...previously, the lecture wanted us to form a group to do assignment...the chinese boy wanted me to join but i declined because I was afraid that i will be no good to them...so I got a group with one chinse girl-Jennie(she's elegant but you can see her price if you want to court her...) and one Iban girl(a humble not funny girl)...we needed one more member...so i recruit Hisyam(short malay boy but useless) and we chosed OPTICAL IMAGES as a topic, the programm was to solve any optical equations, we learned them in form 5 and matriculation....over all i was still useless in the team...Jennie acted like the Leader...and it was nice...I did some job but at the end it was mostly edited and corrected by the two girls...Hisyam whom suppose to be my helper didn't do anything...cause I did his job before him as he delay the works most of the time. So what Hisyam actually did was compile the printed project source code with the printed interface pictures of the program...during the presentation, everythings went well because the program runs very well...as my part-introduction and Mirror images..I used the combination of races to promote our group as the perfect group. Haha...but what i concern is i still don't know what mark I get for VB...I hope to get good one...'A' was my dream...

Sunday Already....

Now I am sitting in front of "Virgino" yeah that's his name...my stupid computer has a cool name..."Virgino or Virginia" I think he is very useless...forever...Behind me is my roommate playing hot computer game...He already installed Counter Strike Condition Zero, NBA , Football, WarCraft III- reign of choas, warCraftII-Frozen Throne, General...all are hot games. I really want to play games...He with his powerful RM268 Graphic Card installed acer desktop computer never be boring yet could concentrate more on study after playing computer...well Me, haunted by stupidness, regret, sadness and all negatives emotion that suite me...never going to play game...

Actually Aunt Angie suggested me to upgrade my computer that I got from her friend for another RM750...Damn! it's too much, almost a K, I'm going to eat my own shit if I waste another K. I hated myself and the stupid relative i have in Johore...Why ...let me tell a story

Whenever I am sad I'll do anything to replaced the dissapointment that happen to me...that's me...

So, since the weekend that i asked Aunt Angie to find me a good computer specilised in gaming...I smell that i had make big mistakes...but I trust my relatives. they are the only group of people I could hope for help...so that's it...Uncle Clay is the best i could anticipated with to find a cheap and good computer...but he said Aunt Angie (His fiancee lorrr!) could find for you...I just nodded "ok". The budget I told them for the PC was less than RM2000. She said she'll find...

so after the weekend over...I didn't get anything because the time was too short...so I waited for another weekend (6-8 october)...So I went to Aunty Jay's house on thursday, early right? because on Friday I don't have class anymore- I already dropped the Survey Engineering Subject...So Louis seem very happy to see me again...but this weekend I already planned everything so we (Lance, Louis and me) wont be boring. the thursday night went just like another night...on Friday...we went to swim in the pool near by where Ian and Janet work in. I paid for all of us-RM21 and I bought RM9 tight...expensive but I hope all of us enjoy, I hope I would be meeting Ian and Janet, it would be easier to deal a cheaper price or even free but they were not there...so,this would be the first and the last I'll use that big sum of money to spend on others need...I hope so...moreover, Lance and Louis are the only two guys I enjoy being together...we had our swimming race, (which i won) stamina race (I lost to lance), wrestling between me and Louis but lance didn't seem interested. we had our hot water bath and eat Nasi Lemak and also SPA...

We swam unto the fullest...After that, we went to Aunty Flocy's house for a night...as I planned...we brought two nice Honeydew for Aunty Flocy...I don't want to come with empty handed. it is my pride. We went there by taxi...So we met Alex-Aunty Flocy's boyfriend for the first time...I only read about him in Aunty Flocy's Blog but this time get the whole picture of him...He is short like what Louis mentioned to me and lance at the first place when I come across to ask them to join me to visit aunty Flocy for a night...He got a totally Dusun face...he is humble, nice person...but to be truth ..I can see that he never show any confident...truly Dusun of Sabah. he is UTM student too but taking master in Information Technology and suppose to stay College 1) but he stay in Aunty Flocy house...Good cHoice- both party could see each other always and he actually have class only on monday and Friday...that for staying in the hostel being lonely like me...

First thing I did there was to see the mini fridge...it was in the unoccupied Uncle Law's room...it is till ok...I could see a cute memorable stickers was sticked to it door. we washed it...The evening come with simple but healthy dinner...two big bowl of vege and salad table soup with chicken meat and also scramble egg, I even had the chance to eat "TUHAU"...and chillies...nicer than if I were in Aunt Jay house...most probably we'll eat outside...not nice...Aunty Flocy keep reminded us to finish everything...but we cannot finish the soup...it's nice but It's too much...so we end up one bowl only and one more was kept for supper or tomorrow. Next we, play card game "BIG TWO"-chUo Tai ti(I don't know the correct spelling). Alex said he don't know how to play that game, so it is only us without him playing at first then suddenly he said he knew this game just the name confused him because he use to called it "Main Pass" in his area previously. We laughed out because of the simple and logic name that they named to such thrilling card game. we also had supper-biscuit with coffee...Lance and Louis seem like will definitely horribly die if they drink coffee so they just drink 1/8 of their glass...later on...i told them I had to stop to study as on Sunday I will be having my test...

So I was studying when they were still playing and they continued the night by watching "13 ghost"...uglyly distrated me to watch the movie...it was a very terrible movie...everything was out of my interest. So, i concentrated on my study on the dining table which if you turn to right you can see the tV show...I also did Sms Aunty Angie about my computer...She asked me to prepared RM1600, I was quite happy cause the price was lower than my budget...then i asked her what the goodness about my computer...she didn't replied and I smell more fishy....

After the story ended all of us got sleep...The next morning Aunty Flocy and his boyfriend woke up earlier...three of us were still lying on the bed...I could rise early but I stayed lying on my top there on the unbed mattress to read some of my Calculus...Then Aunt Flocy called out for breakfast...so we had our "take away food" which they bought from outside just now...I never they had been outside just now...the morning was finished by watching a touching movie..."The Fire Flies". It was about a boy with his sister struggle to be independant to live as orphan during the world war 2...but I am not sure why is it in Korea...And eventually his sister died and he lost of motivation and guts to live. finally he died...and his ghost told the story...the connection of Fire Flies....were when the two child move out from their Aunt house, they try to live in a cave nearby...so every night, they could see a bright beautiful scenary with fire flies happily flying their light in the darkness. In the morning, they saw all the bugs died...when the sister bury them...it remind them how their mother was bur in the same condition-one big hole digged on earth and all the dead bodies were buried together. for me the movie was nice but I don't like the unhappy ending despite their hard effort to live...

Yeah Im not sure the time I received the SMS from Aunty Angie about the computer... Im absolutely not comfortable with the statement of Intel celeron....I don't care about the how much Ghz it have...but the "Celeron" really broke my anticipation and keep awaken and aware...of a good computer... I told Aunty Flocy about the Celeron word...She said it was a mistakes, she told me to asked Aunty Angie back why was it not the still greatest Pentium 4..? She called me and said I must take the computer because her friend already bought it...I felt that was trapped, so I have to buy the computer without my favour...what the hell was this...I tried to tell here that I could get a better PC in Taman u for lower price, but she replied that it was true but the graphic card might be a low standard one...so that's give me an idea that my computer was for gaming...I was a bit relief...then I ended up with ok...how stupid was this University student...I asked for free stuff but got negatives returned...then I asked to add Cd-Rw but I had to add Rm98, i thought the CD-rw would be useful so i say yes...But then I received a call from her again said they will send it tomorrow...I was twisted because i already told them that I had test tomorrow...She just replied "alahhhh, then we will send it to you in UTM"...overall I was not fulfil with the computer but I still have hope because i already mention to them that i want a computer that can support game, she also mention that the graphic card is Asus...so i still manage to switch myself to not to care much about the processor type or to accept the Celeron as long as i can play game...furthermore, there's nothing best, I could do except to say ok...if you notice that i just say positive to everything they wanted or instructed...

First reason is because I could see that myself and Uncle Clay is not good...there's problem, everything was very cool..so maybe if i make my move to approach him, we'll get better...so i asked him to find a computer for me...but he told me that Aunty Angie could find for me...it was ok as long as it is near to him, and yet it would be convinient for him and Aunty Angie if i dont acted any choosy attitude...the second reason why i just say yess because I felt that it was my fault to asked them yet they were not as free as i thought...they needed to go to work and play game-KO.....there's no third..


we Had lunch...another type of soup...I could see that Aunty Flocy have a well planned yet healthy diet for every meal...some more three of us had our complete meal in their house. at 3 we were given errand to buy RO water...the Taxi's fairs was RM10 two ways and the water only cost about rm5...so the Taxi's fair was far more expensive...outside we bought the stuff earlier but I can see Louis began to show his bad behaviour because of boring...he rise his voice, show his uncomfortable face and acted like dont want to be respondsible upon the RO water...we took a taxi and inside I quarelled with louis to entertained the boring air of Saturday afternoon...as usual we keep our volume up...after about 5-10 minutes the Taxi Driver remind us stop to act like a small kid-shouting in the car...Damn...I was quite embarrassed with Lance sitting in the front seat just keep quiet...for louis, I didn't care what he felt but me...20 years old already...urghhh so I stop the play...

we reached there, I did show revenge some unsatisfaction on Lance...but it was over in minutes...then we played badminton, the shuttle cocks flew few times to the outside region of Aunty flocy's hOuse-means to the neighbour compound area...we just played...then we took a taxi to go back to Aunty Jay's house after thanking and said good bye to Aunty Flocy. I stayed there for awhile before I went back by bus...

I was very sad because again i didn't get anything from this weekend...I hoped it gonna get my PC tomorrow...I stopped at City Square area and get my left arm tatooed...RM60...I'll do anything to replace my sadness...It wasn't hurt that much...the fat indian guy use a machine that seem a bit rusty and dirty to do the tatoo...I might have HIV in my body...I choosed a medium size of "Sonico"- as i named my tatoo. he took 30 minutees to finished them...during the making...he keep giving hint about the price...but I just shut up...I don't want to bargain the price before the tatoo done...cause it'll effect the quality of Sonico. so that's it...i have a tatoo for RM60...

I try to get a bus but didn't get one...so I just waited...then only after 2 hours waitting i got one...but only reached Skudai..i cost me RM2.30...it's ok then...rather than Taxi rm20...but I don't know the road so I just got myself relaxed...'

Finally the bus stop at Kulai...Huh! ...I don't know where was Kulai and how far was it from UTM...I asked the Taxi about the fair to UTm...it surprise my heart a lot ...RM25...as much as from Johore Jaya to UTM...but this Good Taxi Driver suggested me to take a bus and drop at Skudai Parade...I wished he'll get a good income for the rest of his life...then I followed his instruction. But this time I ensured myself to asked the bus Driver to drop me at Skudai Parade...The Bus Driver reminded me that how am I supposed to go out without knowing the road...Huh! he was right, I was very angry of myself for being so stupid...The bus costed me another RM2.30..

then at Skudai Parade...A Taxi Driver costed me RM8 to go to my hostel. I spended too much money that day...I came back with Empty handed instead of A graphic Carded pc and a Mini Fridge which I told my roommate-Brendan about them...not only empty handed but also empty brain instead of full of calculus methods of solving and some rumus...I was to die by tomorrow tests...

Next Morning(Sunday 9-october 2005) I had my test I knew that i could solve them...I was quite happy because it wasn't as hard as I thought...because I had the idea to solve most of them...so the test suppose went very well for me...

after test I had my break lunch at Cengal...to celebrate that I could answer the Calculus test...I went to my room and SMS Aunty Angie to asked when are they going to get my PC and mini Fridge here....it was a very late reply until i get myself asleep...

then I received one sms which she asked me to go to Johore Jaya...do You have any idea how hard is it to go to Johore Jaya from utm...the reason was becauseuncle Clay didn't know the path to UTM...I told her i don't know the road and also it took me two bus to reach there...but they seem like forcing me to go there...so again I obeyed their wishes...as to respect them and I want to finished all this problem as soon as possible...I don't want it to be delayed again...and I also message them that i'll bring back the stuff by taxi...because I didn't want them to send me back to UTM...I just didn't want...after what they did to me.

So I took a taxi which Costed me RM25 to Taman Molek back to Aunty Flocy's house...i did called Aunty Flocy before I reached there...there, I just wait...Aunty Flocy was with Alex watching documentary channel of Astro...they were eating Guava. then after about 20 minute...they came.

I was a bit happy, because the problem gonna end here...this was the time where Uncle Clay and Alex meet each other too...so because of me,..Alex meet more of the Family members...Aunty Flocy should thanked me for making the process faster...hahaha...why was i laughing, though i still don't know what's going to happen to me next...then they asked me to follow them follow them...they were so purposely stupid because the things That I want to bring to UTM was a mini Fridge and Pc...they pretend that everything is fine though their car, white Kenari won't fitted me in or both of the stuff, yet I already tell them that Im going back by my own but they seem don't react to that point...I gives a reason that the car don't have enough space and I add up i don't know the road...I also remention that I'll take a cab to go back...i can see uncle clay was pretending to ask me to follow him as he took the map of Johore...damn...it's actually easy to get there as the map show them obviously, At this moment, in my mind i'll follow him if the asked me one more time...but then he asked me to take taxi with a 'small smiling' face that not looking at me...

Ok then...so i was right, he just pretending to be concern about sending me back to UTM...fine...I already thought of this and it's my plan A not plan B...means I prefered it to happen like this...After paying the PC for RM1700 and get them out of the small Kenari, i call a Taxi...I can see Aunty Angie was very happy counting the money...she wated to give me back the cange Rm2 but I just say no need...I was so stupid because i used to do that..., Aunty Angie Suggest me to play "Strong Hold" cause I'll get crazy of it...then i was so sure that I could play game with this computer...I was happy about it...hoping to play as sooner as possible...

It costed me another rm25...I asked Brendan for help..to bring the stuff up to our room...then I started to plug in the cable and everything...with brendan just watched me, thanks then cause i just need that...he was checking the PC...he keep on saying my PC was powerful though he knew it is Celeron...he keep on searching for the Graphic Card Manual...he told me that the Graphic card was not there...I didn't care him cause I knew it was suppose already being installed in my CPU...so I continued with the plugging...then things become bad when I noticed that the power supply cable for the monitor was not there. I sms Aunty Angie and she just asked me to search in the plastic bag which i already did hundred times...so I try to solve this by Calling Dee who was still in Taman U to buy for me...i almost asked him to buy a wrong type of cable...because my computer use the cable which plugged from monitor to PC...so it costed me RM12...Damn...my loan was never enough if such situation keeps bothering me...

So I had to wait for Dee to come back...he said He'll reached there by 7.00pm...but He came at almost 9.00pm because he was having dinner and chat with his Church GirlFriends...ok then, Though i was a bit angry. So, I tried my PC for the first time...brendan keep on saying "Power oo!" Ass hole him...so Virgino was switched on for the first time...it doesn't show any problem however not any speciality...I tried to check the configuration for Graphic Card but didn't find one...there's nothing to do with the computer so that night i just take my rest and get ready for tomorrow class...as I had presentation and Slide show to be done...oh yeah I also tried to installed some games that lance borrowed me but the discs seem already broken...

My english group didnt give co-operate during the discussion so I took the respondsible as a group leader to do all the slide...but Erik seem no to give me any of his file...I was a bit angry of him...maybe he wanted to do it himself...Fine i'll let him helping himself...damn!

I was supposed to do the presentation that night but i fell asleep on my bed without doing any slide show...but God loves me more than I thought because I was awaken by his power of holy spirit at 5.30 am, Thank you GOd, Jesus Christ...so i did the Slide show...I did a simple one...but informative and easy to understand...but I didn't do Erik part because I don't have his file and i thought he'll do it..

the monday morning started with Calculus class...the lecturer distributed the rumus for exam and also some note of The syllabus that was not in the book...after that i asked my group to gather at L50 to practice for presentation. I also asked Dee to bring along his Laptop..to my surprise and anger...Erik didn't do anything for his presentation slide show...to control the situation I asked him to write the introduction on one of the slide...only that...i think it's enough but there should be more....like example of the issue...Oh yeah our group choosed the title of "Soil erosion and ways to prevent it"

But before our practice started...our english lecturers Mdm Siti Aishah asked for aid to carry the LCD projector, Laptop and all of the stuff for presentation to the classroom...she needed two person...none of my group were willing to help...so I told them to continue practice as i would be helping the lecturer...

I helped the lecturer to bring the devices up to the classroom, luckily UTM building are all networkly connected...it is easier to reach there...my group members were there already when i reached there...the lecturer asked for someone to help her to set up the presentation aid devices but no one seem to react...I could see her helpless face...but i'm helpless too because I truly don't have any idea how to set up the tools...but finally the lecturer was help by two chinese boy...why didn't they emerged to help earlier...ok then It was not my problem...

the presentation started by a lame Malay boys group...their presentation was dully witnesses by us...then the second group was my group...so it started with Erik....but the slide showed some simple animation of word like what the Power Point ought to be with some sound effect...very stupid...too common...in my group only me and Erik wore ties Dee and Jeffrin didn't...So Erik started the introcution with a stammering english spoke by him and only one slide then continue by me for the causes of Soil Erosion...I was so confident cause I know what am I supposed to say but overall for my part It's not enough...not powerful enough not clear enough...the Dee proceed with the effect of soil erosion. He just reading the slide but interupted by mdm Aishah's few questions...i took the chance to defend my group instead of Dee...Then finally by Jeffrin talking about the ways to prevent soil erosion......he didn't did it well...he was hopeless as he used to be...but I can see he tried his best, i also answered the mdm Aishah's question regarding to Jeffrin's part...over all our presentation went well...but not enough to satisfied me....

then the activities continued by two more group which was very boring...lastly the Lecturer came with a conclusion by crediting our group as the best presentation group of the day....I wasn't happy about that...but feel better because the burden was over...

nothing much happen that day until the next day on Tuesday..(11 october 2005) I installed a game "Never Winter Night". I just wanna try my Graphic Card....To my surprise and to keep sort of the not even long story, it didn't support at all...I felt cheated...I straightaway message her...asked her nicely because i thought i must had missed to change some of the graphic card configuration...i didn't received her messges immediately...until the next morning (wednesday)I was awaken by her phone call saying that my graphic card is for 2d game... arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh............

I was cheated...it was clear as the crystal blue sea and as obvious the five star grade of pornography film!!!...so according to her my processor couldn't support 3d card...so she suggested me to add Rm800 more to upgrade to Intel pentium 4 + plus Flat Screen monitor, DVD combo, 512mb ram and Radeon graphic card...I still remember those were the things she mention to me in the telephone, she also said that she'll mail me the bill and asked for my email address...I have nothing to said except i'll consider it... sadly i was very stupid...but that not the end of my unfortunate...yeah as addition on tuesday i got my Calculus result...only 12.5/25...i made too much silly mistakes...i was very unlucky...

I wasn't sure about the day...I checked my mailbox and I received the bill from Angie maria...ooo...that's the real name of Aunty Angie...then I realized that the upgrade stuffs weren't like what she mentioned last time..it was to add Rm750 for upgrading the processor to intel Pentium 4, to add better ASUS graphic card and also 512 ddRam...I was mind-twisted by this. So, I messaged her for confirmation...but didn't get the reply that time...

have my one moment I received her call that she was confuse why i was asking about the price and the flat screen and DVD combo...she asked me wether i had checked my e-mail box...then I mentioned about RM750..then she was like not sure about the price...damn what was this...!!! ok then I just said I'll think about it...

so everything wasn't in the good condition...ok..I was very unlucky this year...I finished a lot of money for nothing but a stupid outcome...almost everything...I don't know what to do to replace such disappointment. i just couldn't do anything. During my visit to UPM...I did told Aunty Angie that I can't upgrade my computer this time because of financial Problem. So i asked her what type of game does my computer's graphic card support...I never heard from her since that message...so i could concluded that My computer is not for Gamer, it was for nothing good...It was a mistakes....hurt me thousand times....sometimes i feel better for me to commit suicide...I ever think about this few times not only for this cases...but I don't dare enough or the my disappointment was not worth to be paid with my death by suicide....!

I cannot stand well to tell my friend about my computer...because the price was too much for such low standard computer. whenever my friend asked me about the price...when the hear the price they'll ask why was it so expensive...to stop the topic I'll rise my voice to show unhappiness and said please don't mentioned any other computer you know to compare with mine...I already suffer too much regretness and I don't want no more...Thanks they understood and stop the conversation straightaway.

I'm Loaded

My loan have been bank in... So im loaded with depths already. but I wonder why do I got only rm 3400....including my balance . I had use rm250 for nothing..in Aunty Jay House...I bought two new GBA catridges-madagascar and soccer 2005. yet I planned to buy computer...budget is rm2000. buying a computer causes me lost more than half of the loan. damn... I asked uncle Clay and aunty angie to find for me a good computer. I hope i could get a good and cheaper. I want to use the computer for games and assighnment and also to learn more computer programmes that my previous computer at home had not able to support.

yesterday something stupid happen...I went to aunty Jay house since Friday cause it had been about two month, i didn't visit them. nothing much change....lora-a bit taller and little fatter but her face seem dirty and untaken care baby---tired faced----but she still happy and playful----She could remember my name as 'GILLOT' instead of Gerard, Uncle Law and Aunty Vianey have a job....a very good news....Uncle Law doesn't seem likes to play computer games anymore...he is very respondsible already, but aunty vianey still play sometimes when she wasn't working. On the other hand, Loius is still the same...playful,talk a lot and big...Lance....self-conscious as he used to be but he got Girl Friend that dare to tell him that he is handsome. He had grown taller a bit since two months..I don't like this....-----He'll be having PMR for the next two weeks....Best luck for him though he never study...Never...his life is SMS and game and looking at his images in the mirror.(more actually but this is what i see) ....uncle Desmond and Aunty Jay dont seem like having a job... no it's obvious they don't..anyway Lance told me they are searching...well all i can see that they spend more times in front of the computer playing Knight Online and also Dota Online (War Craft III : Frozen Throne) than on the bed sleepng....Aunty Jay always give me a big mysterious smile when we meet....it's seldom anyway....

I actually wanna go back on Sunday.... I asked Uncle Clay to send me take to UTM with the fridge and also the my New Computer....but Aunty Angie could n't find a good one in the mean of time....So it'll be settled down next weekend...Only the fridge is in my mind...the fridge is in Aunt Flocy house...She asked me to stay overnight in her house but I declined because i planned to stay at Uncle Clay's house...On Saturday afternoon, Me, Loius and Lance come to their house played PS2...Damn I lost every games especially Tekken 4...shit....anticipating a revenge one day.....then at the evening they brought us out to eat dinner....Chicken and pork rice---very nice...then Aunty Ann called them that they were now at the front gate of their house.....then words like" don't have salary yet!" come out from aunty angie....I was twisted....then they took us back to Aunty Jay's house..In my mind, I thought that Aunty Ann was there to take money as Uncle Clay had lend money from them, Lance also agreed with me...I confirm uncle Clay to take me back to UTM tomorrow evening...I also confirmed by SMS-ed to Aunty Flocy that i'll come tomorrow evening....

The next day when uncle Clay come...He asked me is Aunty Flocy in her house, then I told him that I already told her that we'll come....then I called her to confirm....And NO...NO...NO she wasn't in her house...she was out with Aunty diding....though i twisted again Why Aunty Diding was here but all I care is the Fridge. I tried to solve this problem by calling Lance to asked aunty Vianey is Aunty Flocy house's key was there...then he replied - wait for a moment...with a short gap of time he com back with NO.....Damn...Then I have to say sorry to Uncle Clay for such 'technically-management problem' I got down from the car at the Bus terminal near JJ square about 300 meters from Aunty Jay's house- very stupid right?...I thanks them but i feel bad for causing their time wasted....a bit tension i went to JJ square to buy GBA game pak...it's me...stupid- whenever i am feeling bad or dissapointed or stress, i'll always spend money to something that is not beneficial...While looking at the Madagascar and Soccer 2005., I received message then I turn to right to take my phone from my right pocket and..I saw someone familiar--more people that very familiar.....It's Aunty Flocy and aunty Ann with her children and Ian, having drink in JJ square. Their table was very near to me...and somemore i received messages form lance telling me that the key is actually in the house, he ask me to come to the house to get it...two solutions come later..when everything is concluded already...damn. in no timeI bargained for lower price for two catridges...but it took about 5 minutes before the shop dealer agreed...I got RM70 for two catriges...damn it's money wasted...and time wasted...aunty Flocy and the others who didn't realize that i was there were about to move...after paid, i rushed to them...first aunty Ann who was very surprise to see me there....then I told Aunty Flocy everything....So everything will be settled next week....huh....Aunty Ann who actually didn't understand and misunderstood rising her voice in the shop...Aunty Flocy tried to calm her moreover no time to explained they need to go as Aunty Diding Flight was about in time...so I walk back to the Bus terminal after saying BYE, it's funny when Aunty Ann say -'Rod, to be continue!'...I didn't see Aunty Diding but manage to waves hand to them in the car. I saw Aunty diding figure at the front seat of Ian's car...

i took a bus and Sms Uncle Clay what happening...and didn't received any reply as expected....so I went back to UTM alone with anger, I was angry because I did all the mess. On the way i SMS my lady ^Tina ^ but it's end up after i said I was tired and wanted to sleep in the bus but later we will chat again.....I took money at Taman U, and buy facial foam as I began to develope some big acnes on my face. I took taxi going back to campus....damn he charge me RM 6 (usually RM5) and use the rising price of petrol as a reason after listen that I rise my voice to him. I asked him to stopped me at the FAB bus Station, and i pay rm5 because i didn' reach fully to my college.....

Later at night I went to MICT to online, I read Aunty Flocy Blog...She wrote that they were having party on the sateurday night at Uncle Clay house.....So I made another mistakes because actually Aunty Ann was there that night to attend Uncle Clay's house warming and also to welcoming Aunty Diding....huh!!! it's my fault....i hated this....but why Uncle Clay didn't mention to us when he took me, Lance and Louise back...any way it is not about....money lending or depth.....damn....I left the unfortunate, a mistake, stupid weekend with a deep sleep last night....so I learned not to make my own inference and have to confirm everything properly at the first place. ......God I pray to you lord so I cant solve such problem next time....