Everyone going home.
But, not the students.
Their bus will come late.
So, they'll find food.
Dinner at Taman University.
In a chinese food shop.
Ordering for pork meal.
Sweet and sour pork.
Together with rice.
Sit in combined table.
Big table, big group.
Chat while waiting.
Laughing at themself.
only time for enjoy.
Fernella and SylVy.
Two funny girls.
Any boy will fear.
Their speaked words.
lacked of manners.
in horrible ways.
But never a gossip.
Yet, it's merrier.
Later, the bus come.
They'll talk there.
Never stop, never.
until reach hostel.
that's after mass.
15 Jan 2006 Sunday.
Saturday, January 14, 2006
Church
The house of God.
two months of my truancy.
Skudai Christian Centre.
A Roman Catholic's church.
A shop-like small chapel.
Can't find any better.
Small but never full.
mostly UTM parishioner.
Students from Borneo.
Come for saturday evening.
English and Malay Mass.
As an understandable mass.
Early comers may sit anyway.
Any seats for everyone.
The right-front are choir's.
Choir who are also student.
Left side seated by students.
The Mid maybe the anyone.
Choir still doing practice.
Guitar, Organ as music.
Singing the common songs.
Those who had nothing to do.
who are mostly early comers.
Will chat until mass started.
The process is all the same.
Hymns, slightly different.
Three weekly bible readings.
Collection only done once.
Important Holy Communion.
Announcement and Conclusion.
Everyone's seem very happy.
Happy with the good news.
Happy the mass is ended.
It's time to go home.
They'll spread good news.
Until the next Saturday.
15 Jan 2006
two months of my truancy.
Skudai Christian Centre.
A Roman Catholic's church.
A shop-like small chapel.
Can't find any better.
Small but never full.
mostly UTM parishioner.
Students from Borneo.
Come for saturday evening.
English and Malay Mass.
As an understandable mass.
Early comers may sit anyway.
Any seats for everyone.
The right-front are choir's.
Choir who are also student.
Left side seated by students.
The Mid maybe the anyone.
Choir still doing practice.
Guitar, Organ as music.
Singing the common songs.
Those who had nothing to do.
who are mostly early comers.
Will chat until mass started.
The process is all the same.
Hymns, slightly different.
Three weekly bible readings.
Collection only done once.
Important Holy Communion.
Announcement and Conclusion.
Everyone's seem very happy.
Happy with the good news.
Happy the mass is ended.
It's time to go home.
They'll spread good news.
Until the next Saturday.
15 Jan 2006
Do you Believe...
Do you believe the existance of God?
God, the creator of everythings.
If you believe, that's really good.
If you don't, leave it to me.
I'll prove to you in short time.
Open your eyes and look there.
Yes! you can see a long way road.
Stubborn hazel still stone on it.
Have you ever wonder of one question?
who put that stone on that road?
So what is you answer?...
No, not exist by itself
Well, whatever or whoever is it.
There must be something or someone.
try to make a general deduction.
Who put our earth in this universe?
Someone, something or some-One?
Yeah,what or who ever it is.
He is God and I had prove it.
Do you believe the existance of God?
14 Jan 2006 - it's been months uncle Desmond told me this.
God, the creator of everythings.
If you believe, that's really good.
If you don't, leave it to me.
I'll prove to you in short time.
Open your eyes and look there.
Yes! you can see a long way road.
Stubborn hazel still stone on it.
Have you ever wonder of one question?
who put that stone on that road?
So what is you answer?...
No, not exist by itself
Well, whatever or whoever is it.
There must be something or someone.
try to make a general deduction.
Who put our earth in this universe?
Someone, something or some-One?
Yeah,what or who ever it is.
He is God and I had prove it.
Do you believe the existance of God?
14 Jan 2006 - it's been months uncle Desmond told me this.
...a peaceful night.
Tommorow is Saturday.
Church, I must go.
now listening to music.
I'll be there song.
sang in various versions.
Jackson 5 and Mariah Carey.
Last but newest, westlife.
nice and sweet love song.
Never able to sing it.
It's 1.43 am Satuday.
Studying Mathematics.
Differential Equation.
I'm lack of fundamental.
I wished to revise.
revise means look back,
But in front of me...
and on shoulders of me.
full of yesterday works.
it's a wasted Friday.
I overslept till noon.
wasted the free moment.
Friday is my free day,
Yet I didn't appreciate it.
Games instead of study.
So be it, it's over.
I have to pay back tonight
.....what a peaceful night.
1.53 am-saturday 14 Jan 2006.
Church, I must go.
now listening to music.
I'll be there song.
sang in various versions.
Jackson 5 and Mariah Carey.
Last but newest, westlife.
nice and sweet love song.
Never able to sing it.
It's 1.43 am Satuday.
Studying Mathematics.
Differential Equation.
I'm lack of fundamental.
I wished to revise.
revise means look back,
But in front of me...
and on shoulders of me.
full of yesterday works.
it's a wasted Friday.
I overslept till noon.
wasted the free moment.
Friday is my free day,
Yet I didn't appreciate it.
Games instead of study.
So be it, it's over.
I have to pay back tonight
.....what a peaceful night.
1.53 am-saturday 14 Jan 2006.
Tooth Paste
Tooth Paste.
Had you figure out?
had you experienced it?
had you tried it?
Morning without it.
12 Jan 2006
Had you figure out?
had you experienced it?
had you tried it?
Morning without it.
12 Jan 2006
The rainy night.
my brain have problem.
He doesn't want to study.
it keep on thinking.
Flashing back the past.
weakening the pounding heart.
Slowing the blood circulate.
loosening the muscles.
my brain, I blamed.
had become so stubborn.
Maybe it turned stupid.
Why can't I control him.
I can't control any side.
live with too emotional.
too weak and fragile.
How I wish I could start.
make the first move.
move to open the book.
sit and study steadily.
fill him until the morning.
ok, talk nonsense no more.
just walk the talk. Start!
He doesn't want to study.
it keep on thinking.
Flashing back the past.
weakening the pounding heart.
Slowing the blood circulate.
loosening the muscles.
my brain, I blamed.
had become so stubborn.
Maybe it turned stupid.
Why can't I control him.
I can't control any side.
live with too emotional.
too weak and fragile.
How I wish I could start.
make the first move.
move to open the book.
sit and study steadily.
fill him until the morning.
ok, talk nonsense no more.
just walk the talk. Start!
Untitled...
Please don't find me.
I am lacked of what you have
Just leave me alone in this room
the dark room with only me.
there's no one could go in.
I won't allowed anyone.
I am sicked, please leave me.
Don't be so nice to me.
I won't be please with you.
No you don't understand.
Perhaps maybe but please don't
I don't wish to seek any help.
Don't try to understand me.
I don't want you to know.
It's in me for so long.
Let it be only in me alone.
Alone with my self with it.
live the life like this forever.
I am lacked of what you have
Just leave me alone in this room
the dark room with only me.
there's no one could go in.
I won't allowed anyone.
I am sicked, please leave me.
Don't be so nice to me.
I won't be please with you.
No you don't understand.
Perhaps maybe but please don't
I don't wish to seek any help.
Don't try to understand me.
I don't want you to know.
It's in me for so long.
Let it be only in me alone.
Alone with my self with it.
live the life like this forever.
ransacked!
What's an unworthy to be trusted.
The blue locker was opened without key.
Everything's still endangerly fine.
But he'd targetted what's interesting.
The 6 cm radius plate in the blue box.
He searched for what's black recorded.
He found them, a lot of them.
He's glad and there he fulfil himself.
He put it back improperly in the box.
inappropriate way as easily to be known.
to be spotted as they were disturbed.
Later when everything seem to be normal.
The boy as the owner come back very late
Owner knew it and don't like it.
Owner regretted not to keep it safely.
now he'd been labelled as a supplier.
now then he keep it in safer spot.
at least for this after tracked moment.
11 Jan 2006
The blue locker was opened without key.
Everything's still endangerly fine.
But he'd targetted what's interesting.
The 6 cm radius plate in the blue box.
He searched for what's black recorded.
He found them, a lot of them.
He's glad and there he fulfil himself.
He put it back improperly in the box.
inappropriate way as easily to be known.
to be spotted as they were disturbed.
Later when everything seem to be normal.
The boy as the owner come back very late
Owner knew it and don't like it.
Owner regretted not to keep it safely.
now he'd been labelled as a supplier.
now then he keep it in safer spot.
at least for this after tracked moment.
11 Jan 2006
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Sensitive issue... I know but...I'm Curious.
Today 12 Jan 2006, I was supposed to get my long nap for th whole afternoon, but I forget my key in my room. So I went to the library and slept uncomfortably there. Despite a weary and sleepy physical, I still managed to get myself sit still and surt the internet. Thanks, Jesus Christ.
Ok ok....Let me explain why I surf such probihited to discuss (at least in my area) document in the internet...It is very sensitive and usually our mind we automatically blocked from searching such 'illegal' file due to religious faith or something else.
But, i felt that the few years back I was wondering about it. I am not faith ful to my own religion....it's true. Why?
there's a malay proverb "tak kenal, maka tak cinta."(any appropriate word to translate this? - if you don't know, you won't love it.) was almost perfectly describe why i don't really being faithful to God.
Yet, I just learned some issue that had quite related to religion recently from my Aunties- the Princess Diana, The Da Vinci Code, Nostrasdamus and so on. That's really burned my starter to make a move to break the normal thinking into super curious.
ok, I just found two website:
http://www.answering-islam.org/
http://www.answering-christianity.com/ac.htm
I don't think I would have the time to read all of them. I just wanna mention that I found the answering-christianity.com first and I read more from it. I really hate it....
For those who haven't ready to face such issue please leave. Hehe....
Ok ok....Let me explain why I surf such probihited to discuss (at least in my area) document in the internet...It is very sensitive and usually our mind we automatically blocked from searching such 'illegal' file due to religious faith or something else.
But, i felt that the few years back I was wondering about it. I am not faith ful to my own religion....it's true. Why?
there's a malay proverb "tak kenal, maka tak cinta."(any appropriate word to translate this? - if you don't know, you won't love it.) was almost perfectly describe why i don't really being faithful to God.
Yet, I just learned some issue that had quite related to religion recently from my Aunties- the Princess Diana, The Da Vinci Code, Nostrasdamus and so on. That's really burned my starter to make a move to break the normal thinking into super curious.
ok, I just found two website:
http://www.answering-islam.org/
http://www.answering-christianity.com/ac.htm
I don't think I would have the time to read all of them. I just wanna mention that I found the answering-christianity.com first and I read more from it. I really hate it....
For those who haven't ready to face such issue please leave. Hehe....
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
4th of january~
Wednesday early morrow 2.45a.m. 4 jan 2006 still haven't sleep yet.
a bit feeling stressed when thinking about tutorial work... a lot of them and I haven't get any of the hand out.
Just felt very sleepy in every class.because that night i can't sleep - play game, learn Auto CAD and when i tried to sleep, my room mate XXX and I can't sleep. at 2 pm feeling much much more want to slumb. at about 3.20 pm the lecturer announced that there'll be no class on the next Monday and the class ended....You see it! I was like winning a jack pot...see delight with that announcement. So I planned to go back to Aunty Flocy House on Thursday afternoon and go back until UTM next wednesday, I hate thinking of goin back to UTM. Haha. Oh ya...without realizing why, I felt fresh and not sleepy anymore.
I just asked the approval from my academic advisor for taking the second year subject. I am going to be very busy this semester. One more thing that could have made me busy was the co-curriculum which I joined swimming. it started tommorow but I don't have any idea how to go to the MBJB larkin for trainning. huh!
Busy...How I wish I could just stay at home...doing nothing but feel relieve much more.
at 5.27 a.m. Still not sleeping. won't be sleeping lorr..Watching "Flying by Heart" While studying Applied Mechanics. ermm. i wonder how....?
I tried to do some of the question but failed lorrr...that really alarm me where am i now...
about 8 am I went to pay and settle my insert subject application...Lost RM25....
Money....I eat breakfast, a cheap and I considered as break lunch.
Today I had Ko-Q, co-curriculum and I got Swimming. I suppose to get ready at the Ko-Q department before 2 pm but due to overslept and uneffective alarm clock, I woke up at 1.55 pm and rushed out my room. On the way i met Kimberly Han, a sweet Chemical student whom I knew since 2002-work in the same hotel as a banquet, with her friends. So I slower my path, had simple chat with her and eventually missed the bus. A free fair bus specially for swimming trainee. waaaaaa! The officer suggested me to go to Larkin-the place where the trainning are held. Wait a minute....see when I looked at the time, it was only 2.02 p.m. I wonder why in no time, malaysians become so punctual.
So I made a promt decision to get there and first of all i got a taxi to Taman U. Taxi was prohibited by myself as 2006 resolution in planning to control my financial defisit but I broke it. lost Rm5.00. However taking taxi to Taman U was a big mistake actually, because at taman U, there is no bus going to Larkin. So in Taman U I took a JB bus for RM3.00.
Just about 5 minutes, I saw two busses which taking Pontian-Larkin at the back. So I get down from the bus-see wasted already, but I wanted to avoid too much time consumed before I reach Larkin. Then, how was my fate dilocated so badly when both busses didn't stop at the bus stop I was standing at. The Drivers weren't even looked at me who was waving hand at them. Ermm...
So I walk until I reached Skudai parade and get another Pontian-Larkin Bus for Rm2.00 as a fair. Then when i reached Larking I wasn't sure where is it....It was started rainning whereby I took people whom asked for direction, suggestion to take a taxi to go to Kolam renang MBJB Larkin. I got at the stall market back side taxi which I was told to be cheaper. ok rm4.00
Die... Die...after paying the taxi, I don't have enough money! for the month...now left rm2.00.
Ok the swimming lesson which the instructor was a cool young guy with a perfect swimming physical and he told me - the late comer to change before going into the pool....what pool was it?...the deepest was only 6 feet. I considered shallow.... So what I learn...two basic skill of floating...quite hard but I manage to confirmed my instructor of my understanding and ability during the test without any repeats.
Uh...after swim, my stomach, ache of hungriness, painful. So when I get back to UTM...this time by the no cost bus, I went straight to the ATM machine and withdraw my leftover cash....wah lau way....last rm50.......I stopped my plan to feed my stomach. went to the library, read news and write this....
Money......but I still stick to my plan for tomorrow, that is to go back to Aunty flocy house after class.
a bit feeling stressed when thinking about tutorial work... a lot of them and I haven't get any of the hand out.
Just felt very sleepy in every class.because that night i can't sleep - play game, learn Auto CAD and when i tried to sleep, my room mate XXX and I can't sleep. at 2 pm feeling much much more want to slumb. at about 3.20 pm the lecturer announced that there'll be no class on the next Monday and the class ended....You see it! I was like winning a jack pot...see delight with that announcement. So I planned to go back to Aunty Flocy House on Thursday afternoon and go back until UTM next wednesday, I hate thinking of goin back to UTM. Haha. Oh ya...without realizing why, I felt fresh and not sleepy anymore.
I just asked the approval from my academic advisor for taking the second year subject. I am going to be very busy this semester. One more thing that could have made me busy was the co-curriculum which I joined swimming. it started tommorow but I don't have any idea how to go to the MBJB larkin for trainning. huh!
Busy...How I wish I could just stay at home...doing nothing but feel relieve much more.
at 5.27 a.m. Still not sleeping. won't be sleeping lorr..Watching "Flying by Heart" While studying Applied Mechanics. ermm. i wonder how....?
I tried to do some of the question but failed lorrr...that really alarm me where am i now...
about 8 am I went to pay and settle my insert subject application...Lost RM25....
Money....I eat breakfast, a cheap and I considered as break lunch.
Today I had Ko-Q, co-curriculum and I got Swimming. I suppose to get ready at the Ko-Q department before 2 pm but due to overslept and uneffective alarm clock, I woke up at 1.55 pm and rushed out my room. On the way i met Kimberly Han, a sweet Chemical student whom I knew since 2002-work in the same hotel as a banquet, with her friends. So I slower my path, had simple chat with her and eventually missed the bus. A free fair bus specially for swimming trainee. waaaaaa! The officer suggested me to go to Larkin-the place where the trainning are held. Wait a minute....see when I looked at the time, it was only 2.02 p.m. I wonder why in no time, malaysians become so punctual.
So I made a promt decision to get there and first of all i got a taxi to Taman U. Taxi was prohibited by myself as 2006 resolution in planning to control my financial defisit but I broke it. lost Rm5.00. However taking taxi to Taman U was a big mistake actually, because at taman U, there is no bus going to Larkin. So in Taman U I took a JB bus for RM3.00.
Just about 5 minutes, I saw two busses which taking Pontian-Larkin at the back. So I get down from the bus-see wasted already, but I wanted to avoid too much time consumed before I reach Larkin. Then, how was my fate dilocated so badly when both busses didn't stop at the bus stop I was standing at. The Drivers weren't even looked at me who was waving hand at them. Ermm...
So I walk until I reached Skudai parade and get another Pontian-Larkin Bus for Rm2.00 as a fair. Then when i reached Larking I wasn't sure where is it....It was started rainning whereby I took people whom asked for direction, suggestion to take a taxi to go to Kolam renang MBJB Larkin. I got at the stall market back side taxi which I was told to be cheaper. ok rm4.00
Die... Die...after paying the taxi, I don't have enough money! for the month...now left rm2.00.
Ok the swimming lesson which the instructor was a cool young guy with a perfect swimming physical and he told me - the late comer to change before going into the pool....what pool was it?...the deepest was only 6 feet. I considered shallow.... So what I learn...two basic skill of floating...quite hard but I manage to confirmed my instructor of my understanding and ability during the test without any repeats.
Uh...after swim, my stomach, ache of hungriness, painful. So when I get back to UTM...this time by the no cost bus, I went straight to the ATM machine and withdraw my leftover cash....wah lau way....last rm50.......I stopped my plan to feed my stomach. went to the library, read news and write this....
Money......but I still stick to my plan for tomorrow, that is to go back to Aunty flocy house after class.
Sunday, January 01, 2006
all had started again.
New Year. My new year main resolution is to get a better grade in both semesters of 2006.
so What i did for welcoming 2006. I didn't do anything except play Dota. But uncle Desmond come to fetch us and we had a Mc Donald a Lunch and later Lance, Louis and I were brought to Uncle Clay's House to watch King Kong DVD. Nice Movie. Funny, exciting, thrilling and Sad.
as the time nearl 12 am(new Year)!! Uncle desmond brought us to Orange Cafe which almost full house and there were band singing on one corner.(We had invited Aunty Vianey, but decline as Lora also don't want to join-Just like me during Christmas. Hmmm!). we ate fried Chicken (If I was in Sabah i might had eat roasted Chicken wings.) . The 2006 year come and we had the chance to see fireworks everywhere. We had quite lot of chat about history, theory, famous people and world stories which nothing to do with Dota. So no barbecue for this new year but at least there is something happening in me.
After That Uncle Desmond wanted to play games but i insisted that I needed to go back, because I need to packed my stuff. So when we reach Aunty Flocy's house, there was few more fire Works on the new promising dark sky. Aunty Vianey also came out to see.
So, the first thing I did was had a wash. later Dota until the morning come. Hahaha. then I started to clean the house. I felt dizzy when I looked the house dirtiness, and i couldn't do it alone so I just did what i could...then a 1 pm I had a nap untill 5pm. Aunty Vianey woke up just the time when I was about to nap. then when I woke up, I played Dota but Lance and Louis weren't there. Then I packed my stuff...and at 9 pm I called the taxi using Aunty Vianey phone.
I felt very heavy heart actually to leave and to start college again. I just don't know why is it when I spend more time there the much more I don't want to leave (I still remember that I use to have such feeling during my primary school). I had skipped the whole classes for last week butI still feel very hard to get start. I really don't like UTM larrrr....If I dare to just quit like what Alex did to matriculation...but I know I won't. My inside was like very heavy but my mind keep telling me you better go sooner or you'll pay for it.
The Taxi come and loaded it with my stuff. With short good bye, I left the house without looking back. Hahaha....
At Utm...the taxi charged me Rm35 but I got rm30 later after telling him that it use to be rm25. Then problem come when my room was locked. I hate the feeling when there is people looking at me. So I sneaked in from the window and unpacked my stuff then sleep...
so What i did for welcoming 2006. I didn't do anything except play Dota. But uncle Desmond come to fetch us and we had a Mc Donald a Lunch and later Lance, Louis and I were brought to Uncle Clay's House to watch King Kong DVD. Nice Movie. Funny, exciting, thrilling and Sad.
as the time nearl 12 am(new Year)!! Uncle desmond brought us to Orange Cafe which almost full house and there were band singing on one corner.(We had invited Aunty Vianey, but decline as Lora also don't want to join-Just like me during Christmas. Hmmm!). we ate fried Chicken (If I was in Sabah i might had eat roasted Chicken wings.) . The 2006 year come and we had the chance to see fireworks everywhere. We had quite lot of chat about history, theory, famous people and world stories which nothing to do with Dota. So no barbecue for this new year but at least there is something happening in me.
After That Uncle Desmond wanted to play games but i insisted that I needed to go back, because I need to packed my stuff. So when we reach Aunty Flocy's house, there was few more fire Works on the new promising dark sky. Aunty Vianey also came out to see.
So, the first thing I did was had a wash. later Dota until the morning come. Hahaha. then I started to clean the house. I felt dizzy when I looked the house dirtiness, and i couldn't do it alone so I just did what i could...then a 1 pm I had a nap untill 5pm. Aunty Vianey woke up just the time when I was about to nap. then when I woke up, I played Dota but Lance and Louis weren't there. Then I packed my stuff...and at 9 pm I called the taxi using Aunty Vianey phone.
I felt very heavy heart actually to leave and to start college again. I just don't know why is it when I spend more time there the much more I don't want to leave (I still remember that I use to have such feeling during my primary school). I had skipped the whole classes for last week butI still feel very hard to get start. I really don't like UTM larrrr....If I dare to just quit like what Alex did to matriculation...but I know I won't. My inside was like very heavy but my mind keep telling me you better go sooner or you'll pay for it.
The Taxi come and loaded it with my stuff. With short good bye, I left the house without looking back. Hahaha....
At Utm...the taxi charged me Rm35 but I got rm30 later after telling him that it use to be rm25. Then problem come when my room was locked. I hate the feeling when there is people looking at me. So I sneaked in from the window and unpacked my stuff then sleep...
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