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Hey how do you do?
How's your study...
I'm sorry for the inconvinient...
you guys can't contact me right?
I had sold off my phone to my cousins.
RM50 for 3315i not bad huh..
I was planning to buy new one.
but later, I can't find any ideal phone.
Ideal means nice, intergrated and cheap.
Hhehe...quite choosy, that's why.

Hey nice picture you have...Love it..
Seem happy and didn't change.
You are still steady and cool
keep it up dude...ermm...
talking about myself.
Dear friend, I am getting worse
but still ok and fine.
I can see that study is not in me
not inline with my soul.
not suitable with my condition.
not my time like the past.
I just don't know and I think so.

Hey, please pray for me.
I don't think i could make this
my family couldn't help
I can't study here. Really!
I need to become a Kia Su
A dislikable Kia Su.
act like that towards friends.
I really need full time study.
restart everythings back.
see, this course isn't tough.
not tough at all but I can't
I don't know why.

let me tell you my condition.
see, I got pointer as much as 3
3 for the first semester.
3 for a start, a bad start.
3 is not bad for bad students.
I am not bad student.
but it seem i will be one
3 synonym to water surface.
that's already past.
now everything's wrong for me.
eat, play and study.
that's normal and good.
enough said my deans.
but i was wrong.

my previous tests.
I had been the lowest.
lowest isn't studipest
i know that.
maybe lowest is laziest.
no that's wrong.
maybe strategies got problem.
I studied like normal.
I had been less wasting time.
but there's a but.
what I read gone
like the passing wind.
or passing tsunami.

foolish me why could that be.
it's gone from the test room.
gone away with time.
as time passed by.
I couldn't answer much.
I was afraid so much.
this shouldn't be.
shall or not, time goes by
and I be the lowest.
most embarassing.
Can you advice me?
how to prevent this.

foremost, I need attention..
not from anyone
but from you guys...
Just from you guys
thanks for the recent message.
just message me.
just text me online.
i'll feet your warm kind heart.
when to visit you?
ermmm don't know.
dude. you are so much free?
I am very not....Free.

well maybe after the semester.
which ended at the end of April.
well see you that time.
I hope to bring good news.
please let me be.
like one of you.
smart always plus cool.
I swear I'll work ten times.
ok i need to change the regulation.
if and only if I got good news.
news about my study
news about final exam.
I'll go to your place.
is that alright?

i had wrote too much craps.
I need to stop.
need to study-(I hope so)
but I must study.
seeing you smilling face.
makes you my role model.
hahah i seldom said this.
but i really have to this time.
gotta go.
bye

oh ya... I'll write to you again next week-promise you and also every weeks just to make sure my life is getting better. tell me what's going down to you guys there...hmmm

Fluid oh Fluid!

i am so sorry fluid;
i did it to you;
Though i already promise;
promise to Moment;
promise to Land;
which I mean it;
which for all of you;
But i broke it;
and sadly to you;
my fluid oh fluid.

i had been tested;
it is very hard;
i can't help you fluid;
i can't at that moment;
and it's my fault;
i didn't get ready;
i overslept that night;
ignore you in loneliness;
Day comes but it's too late;
i'd tried but failed.

i never learn from it;
it's been so long;
i thought you're excluded;
Now, you are in a risk;
i must save you;
i won't promise;
No promise this time.
i'll swear to all of you;
with God helps and wills;
i'll save 'you all'.

specially to my fluid whom i felt guilty and sorry. Last day of February 2006-1.44pm. This happened to me and my fluid.....

I wanted to write more ...

I had a lot in my thought which is the things that I should've and really wanted to write in my blog. I don't want them to just passed by without noting them. but i don't have time... uhhhh... yet I already bring Virginionia t Century Computer Service. Ok maybe I should write it in the old way in my planners book (a new one) then later transfer them to the internet. ermmm... see if and only if I get any time that can allowed me to write.


6.02pm 27 Feb 2006 (argh...need to go jogging with Dee.)

very busy

I had been very busy until I can't even update my blog. So here's what happen in front of my eyes.

@I'd learned to make simple Pizza. It's indeed a very expensive food. Spaghetti is quite simpler lorrr.

@the one and only one who failed the applied mechanics test....35% HUAAAA. The lecturer displayed the whole class mark in a minute with a projector together with the IC's no. Damn, got one most disgusting boy really wanted to know who was the failer. He was asking who was that while he was just sitting right behind of me. He, even asked a copy of that result from the lecturer but of course he won't have it. Stupid.....me- shame on me....nahhh I promise this won't happen again.

@Virginionia still in coma. Hmmmm

@Stupid Civil Engineering Drawing course had made me gone crazy for another tonnes of works after another, I would be an architech if i manage to handle it.

@Next Thursday (2 March) is my mum Birthday together with Chelsea Amanda my cousin.

@had a new hair cut by Dee Aguindrew... Haha it's funny to get a birds nest hair. I'd let him to experimented and experienced on my hair. so that he'll get better next time. it's not bad but funny. So I put on my ear-ring to distract people from commenting my hair....It's work...hahaha

@I just applied my students Grads Card and already get my new matrix BSN card....after so long....

@I planned to get laptop and a 3G phone huh....by loan and hope to get that permission from my parents. See the loan is about RM5000 for 5 years and I'll get the both stuff in about 5 weeks.

ermm.... study....

the priority

in front of me is a jar...
reflecting transparent jar...
I have enough sand, water and stone...
want to fill all into jar...

I would never do it ...
if I start with water...
then sand, stone wouldn't fit....
or stone, sand would hard to get in...
nor if I begin with sand...
water could flow freely
but stone definitely won't go in...


stone should I put first...
the heaviest and biggest...
then sand slowly pour...
move into the porous stone...
then water anytime ....
I have to learn to think
before I move...


3.00pm 19 Feb 2006 the proverb given by Dr. Ong...which I never applied to my university's life....

as I predicted....!

it's was a hectic schedule on this Wednesday whereby I had class at 11 a.m. (I woke up very late due to the unfinished Auto Cad assignment) then swimming lesson at 2.00 p.m. But that night i'll be having Applied Mechanic test at 8pm.... I only had time from 5 pm to revise...In my thought I won't be needing to revise so much because I'd already had the basic and i'd been so hardworking doing the subject's tutorial question....

well...It's going to happen again as predicted regarding to my previous semester condition where I couldn't answer most of the question...i was totally forgot how to find the Resultant of two forces in 3D. I know now that i will only get below 50 % for the test.

Virginionia seem to awake but still very sick...thank god.

I cancelled my plan to go back to Aunty Flocy's house because Malaysians won't be having public holiday this coming monday. Yet, i haven't finished my auto Cad assignment and revision.

1.52 pm 8 Feb 2006

Virginio and Virginia death...!!

well, I don't know what happen...I went to my aunt's house for the semester break (27 Jan to 6 Feb) to celebrate Chinese New Year and to spend my free time there... a lot of things happened which uncovered the other side of me (Can't write here).

So I went back at the a last hour before my class begin, tending to be dedicated upon my study I didn't switch Virginionia until when I really need him to continue my Auto Cad assignments. When Time had come, it was 9.30pm where i found virginio and my virginia dead....

I don't know what happen...I was worry that my work which due date will on the next Tuesday, I can't play games, listening to music and play My Computer anymore....Virginio wake up....please Virginia don't mad at me because I left you alone for a week.

ok....Virginia and Virginio were over...I can't just keep worrying about them... I have to do my assignment in alternative way...but how....ermmm then who...yess Dee, tonight I'm going to borrow his LapTop to finish one of my burden. but it is even worse that I have to redo all the work. wahhhh

Test... another test for Applied Mechanics, I haven't prepared well althought I know I could do it through my common sense. But I have to be familiarized with some terminology...oh ya tommorow also have swimming class... but tonight I'm going to finish Civil Engineering Drawing, then read applied. won't be having much time to rest nor sleep.

ermmm I want to make sure all things are done before I....well I am going back to my Aunt's House again to celebrate Chap Goh Mei....it's not about the party but I feel much more comfortable in my aunt house rather than staying at my University campus.

Oh ya... A friend of mine who also blogging had sended me a story....an I already read it but not the last two chapters....so funny, she used my name as the boy whom the protagonist had a crush on him. it's a nice story...I bet if I could have a studio, like Hayao Miyazaki with his Studio Ghibli, I'll sign a contract with my friend to make Anime. hahaha-dreaming. The story really remind me the anime entitled "whisper of the heart". unfortunately i haven't read the full story....why? my Virginianio is dead. hahaha...

till then

it's going to happen again!

Huh....too bad I had a very low mark for my tests....have nothing to say anymore. wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

6 Feb 2006 4:58pm