I playing safe now..

at nite, I always hope u are in my arms.
I will warm the cold nite.
I want to watch you sleep-soundly.

at work, i thought of you.
I know we'll meet again,
but i can't wait that moment.
Cus I missed you so much.

And at time we were together,
I feel great...
But somehow, dont know why,
I felt incomplete.

When we were talking,
I admire your sweer voice,
I 'm inspired by your words.
Weekend O please come.

I can get through anything.
but not this
the feeling of missing you.
It's strentening me.

In the church..
I always want to sit with you
To worship God with you.
To feel God's grace upon us.

Now I'm writing this.
Just to tell you.
as I love you but couldn't
no I just couldn't say it.

I hope this letter is enough,
greatly to express my feeling.
I'm playing safe now.
I won't take risk.

Dee

Dee texted me on the second day of our LI.

Dee:
Wei mcmna li? D
manala ko tnggl?


Dee:
Sy d sni tampoi
utma, tggal d pulai
utma. Teda jg, sja2
tnya. Mcamnala ko
p li..Jauh jg tu..

Gerard:
Pulai utma rumah
pastor? Sia di
tmpat kami XXX
tggal dlu. sia
guna bas. 2 bas
tp kalau x sempat
sia tidur sana
rumah setinggan.
haha asal boleh
idup. Ba dee-kalau
ada plan ujung mggu kastau. tp
sia kerja sabtu.
sbab mau jaga site
kan. Fashion show
pun kastau. Kau
apa kabar? apala
Kerja kau?

Dee:
Bkan, sy tggl d
ruma bro dkat dgn
giant tman u. sy ok
jg ni. Ko mcamna?
Sy d pjbt ja ni skrg
kna suru fham prjk
yg dorg bt bru kna
hntr p site. Ko
apala krja kna bg?
Ba nti sy kshtau
klu ada plan hjng
mggu. Sy pn krja
hri sbtu. tp stngh
hri jala. Fshn show
31 mei nti..

Gerard:
Sia pun duduk2 ja
di ofice kmarin.
Baru kna antar p
site hari ni. O dpan
giant? Uina, ada
charles and jephra
juga sana tu.
Anyway skrg sia
buat formwork
utk stump Dee,
kau perna dgr
PDA-Pile data
analysis?

Dee:
Bkan yg di dpn
giant. yg sblh kri
giant, lalu 2 trffc
light lg..Sy x prnh
bt o 2 PDA.. Ko jam
bpa msuk sma blik
kja?

Gerard:
8am-5.30pmm. lama
kan, rehat jam
1-2pm! haha. tu
kontraktor ckp
utm teruk tdak
ajar PDA..
Kemarin sia
kana suru kira
concrete, gila,
sia bantai trus
p tana engineer
dan qS ni.
Haha.

Dee:
Lbh krng smala
kta. tp sy stat
8.30am-5.30pm.
Rhat 12.30 smpi
1.30. Sy pn kna
mrah ni kmrn p
bca newspapr tme
kja..Borng ni,kna
suru bca file
projek..Ko blik
skudai ka hri ni?

Gerard:
Haha, sia pun
baca news smpai
tidur2 lg tapuk2.
Kau kena bg site
plan ka. Balik
napa dee ada
plan?

Dee:
Ada sy kna bt tp
prjk yg lma
pnyala. kna suru
tgok..Teda jg grad. blum da plan
lg..

Gerard:
Oh yaka. Ok ja,
jgn lupa, blajar VB.
K. Tetau bila kita
bulih jumpa
dr Shahrin ni.
Blajar ja la.

At that nite, Dee invite me to go out but heaven no I don't want and I can't-very far...maybe next time.

Sheena SMS....WOW!

She called me when I was in the office doing some calculations. At first she greet asallamualaikum, the ask 'is this Mr.President?'. I was confuse and just answered yes. She called up her name but I couldn't hear it properly and i hung up because I was in the office...

then I texted her:

Gerard:Ya-saya lupa.
Teruk kan. Sia x
dpt ingt suara kau
juga. Sori. Saya
kerja ni. Practical
skrg di office.

Sheena:oh sori, actualy sia
call td mo invite ko
dtg pg wed
reception sia d le
meridian hotel on
7th june..:)

Gerard: Adoi, thanks.
Haha...baru sia igt
kau Sheena. Sori
gia sia d jb ni li
sampai july. Nda
dpt la. Ya ba mr
presiden ni haha.
kau tau juga. Sory
x3

Sheena:Ko ni can suda lupa
kawan hehe, bah
nda pa kalo mcm
tu..have a nice
day!!

Gerard:Sorix3, sia punya
phone kena curi
oleh badut jahat.
So ni phone baru
and sia claim no
balik. Ilang number
kau. Tdi sia dgr
kau ckp nama 'lina'
ba. Haha. Silap dgr.
biasala di pjbt sia
takut2 ba. 1st day
juga ni. Ba
Sheena. Kau
kahwin bgus2 aaa,
jd bride yg paling
cantik di dunia. ish
rugi la sia x pg ni.

Sheena:Oh macm tu pula
cerita..its ok
Gerard, sia pun
greet ko
asalamualaikum
juga bah
td,hehe..by the
way thanks. :).

Missed her so much...

Battle of the band,.

Hi Im glad to see u in the church. Although I felt awkward but i tried to cool down. I dun mind for you didn't help my band although i asked for it. I never care anymore. Glad so much to see how great is the band u guys had formed. Congratulations for winning 3rd place. I know it's a lil' late to greet this.

Anyway I wish to say something. I'm the new president of GIFT now. Just got voted just now. Although I have problem as you know, but i feel that i still want to serve my best to GOD. I know my weaknesses and already accepted for I am. I won't struggle my self to be somebody but i only tell the trusted friend. I had stop thinking of changing as long as I don't do something disgusting. Cause attempthing to change only made me even suffer and disturbed very much. And by that way, I never blame God, who loves me so much.

Im happy to be myself. I knew we will never be like last time. And I also had stopped hoping for that. But Thank God for the very great lil' time (1 year) that he gave me the chances to know you. I had the most meaningful and enjoy period in my life. You had brough a big impact to my life. All that moment will I remember, never diminish.

God Bless You.

Willie Boy - SMS about his internship.

Willie was the first person to text me asking how was I doing with my internship.

Willie:Haha..baru mau start ni bsok. tension o. Ko cam mana?

Gerard:bsuk juga. memang tension juga, bulum tau tmpat dia lg tu, Damn Sia stay di rumah si kath lagi yag dulu tu. Tp xda member. tulah tension.

Willie:Ko Li d mana la?

Gerard:Si Li di J.B. Kau kerja ka ujung mggu? Saya isnin jumaat ja. tension. napa kau tension oo haha

Willie:Bos sy tmpt li 2 lectr sy.cerewet gila..bikin panas

Gerard: Haha..Bagus tu. lama2 dia jd kawan kau tu. Kau bulih urus ba tu. jgn takut.

On the first day of Internship
Willie:Mcm mana Li ko?
Gerard: Boring, betul. Hahah. 1st day guna bas and masuk orientasi and duduk dari pukul 9.30am smpai skrg. Tggu tu site engineer dtg utk handtar sia p site. Jau ni tmpt dia. kau?

Willie: x bt pa2 ni. ngantuk gila ni...dorg bg drawing pas2 suruh tgk dr td sampai skr.
Willie: Haha..dorg bg1 kompter ni. nasib la ada internet..Hehe..ya sy tggu tym rehat ja ni...haha

Willie:Huhu another boring day. Ko pa cam? Ada p site la smlm?

Few day later
Willie:Pa mcm ko? Ok ka LI?

Gerard:Sori tlupa! ok2 la. kena tanya2, bnyk sia x pandai jawab. kau? Pinter, sia jatuh teruk ni sem, Adui Gitu rajin sia.

Willie:Keluar da ka result ko?

Gerard: Yup baru senarai tampai, tp sidah kira. kamu lum ka?

Willie: Blum lg. bru ja abis mggu xam ni...

Gerard:O ba..sia ni sem. 2.XX. harp kau dapt yang terbaik. mcma LI kau?

Willie: Teruk o. bt sy makin benci ni melayu...

Gerard: Ops..lek kau ba! apa yg terjadi O?

Willie: Suma muslim ni. berat sebelah ni...

Gerard: ba kau suant ja ba. haha. harap kau dpt kc settle la.

Willie:2 la2...boring btl ni mcm org lutsinar ja sy sana...

Gerard: ba kau p mengurat la tu perempuan. teda kerja kan!Sial juga. Actually sia pun rasa kena buang di satu tmpt yg sudah delay lama ni. then masuk lumpur2.kerja dgn indon dan bangla. kena surh tggal d rumah sewa yg mcm d sinsuran dulu tu. tp ada juga blajar la. Napa kau x minta kerja?! Sia cabar kau p minta kerja la nanti isnin.

Willie: Haha...suda bnyk kali la sy minta keja. yg sy kana bg kerja2 draftman bodo ni.

Gerard: Will apa kau buat skrg? ada sudah tu malayu bg kau kerja? apa tu dratman.

Willie: kira loading pile cap ni. dia x tau pa lg keja mo bg.mcm 2torial saja...

Gerard:Bhgian consultant gitu la ba kan! Org lain kana bg kerja apa? ui na sia skrg di site lagi la, jd mandur. X buat apa2 tinguk ja. tgk pekerja indo dan bangla. x ???. kerja bnyk delayni pile silap pasang. Lol.

Gerard: Kau ada kerja sudah ka?

Friends SMS : Marcellus

Somtimes I don't feel to delete the SMS i got because i got a feeling towards those SMS. I found it special especially when its from certain people.

Marcellus...
the day before his operation, Didi ask all gifters to entertain and pray for him. I texted him.

Gerard :
hi cellus, sia dpt
msg dari didi, kau
operation bsuk!!
wow, relax kau, ini
utk kebaikan kau
n. Lepas operate
kau misti sihat ni.
bulih la join si bat
manari lagi. Oh ya
kau mau tau kabar
sia, sia baru
gunting rambut d
sana yg AuW Auw
yg dulu kau sama
cam pomote sma
sia. rm7 sudah ni.
naik dah. Cis. So
sia ckp melayu sdh
sma dia. Then dia
pun gunting
senyap2 ni. Nda lg
dia bercerita. at
the end abis
rambut sia kena
gunting.
Mula2 sia
x suka. tp di church
kana puji ni. Gila
macho betul sia ni.
hehe! anyway i
will pray 4 u dude.

Cellus:
Hehe eya bsuk
pg :) hahaha mkin
champen da ptg
rmbt ar..tp spa2
pun dia x pndi phm
khdk sa
ekekeke..hensemla
ko ni kan :)

Gerard :
hi cellus, sia dpt
msg dari didi, kau
Yap...tp sia
memang
handsome ba.
Paling handsome
di GIFT skrg. ada
kemungkinana
paling handsome di
utm. tp kalau kau
balik nanti, sia jatuh
numbur 2 la ni.
haha.


Cellus:
hahaha tau x
pe..mgalah juga
ko sama sia arr
..ekeke skali
ngan plstic sgry
ni sia wat
ekeke

Gerard:
ba minta tu
pkr surgry kc
handsome2++
1000% kama.
anyway gud
nite,kau perlu
rhat ni. bsuk ko
mau btarung.
Rehat ckp2.
Sia pla bakr lilin,
bsuk da paper.

Cellus:
hehe K bha :)
aik bakr lilin
wat pa?

Gerard:
peribahasa
ba tu cellus.
maksud blajar
sampai pagi.
hahaha!

Cellus:
Owhh taula sa ni x
pwer mlayu pnya
perbhasa..k
gudluck :)

I just hope Marcellus will get well as soon as possible. may al mighty God cure him.

Internship

too bad I just don't know what to write.
I am having my internship at Johore
Staying at Senior Kath House
Still doing find...
I don't know
feeling bad
lonesome
help
bye
no
I