~~::..So Many Trees , So Little Time ..::~~

Sunday, June 01, 2008

Kaamatan..

So I was still in Batu Pahat, and Edrin organized a kaamatan+gawai celebration in his house on the 31st in Skudai. Of course I don't want to miss it.

I got off day and go to Skudai riding with Meo. Thanks Meo..

Cool-Edrin indeed had prepare very well, the food, the activities, drink, 'ritual' and bbq.

Special guest: Fr Jojo, Aunty Teresa, Uncle David, Paulus, Peter, Terence, charlces and Meo...hehe

thanks again Edrin.

Friday, May 30, 2008

I playing safe now..

at nite, I always hope u are in my arms.
I will warm the cold nite.
I want to watch you sleep-soundly.

at work, i thought of you.
I know we'll meet again,
but i can't wait that moment.
Cus I missed you so much.

And at time we were together,
I feel great...
But somehow, dont know why,
I felt incomplete.

When we were talking,
I admire your sweer voice,
I 'm inspired by your words.
Weekend O please come.

I can get through anything.
but not this
the feeling of missing you.
It's strentening me.

In the church..
I always want to sit with you
To worship God with you.
To feel God's grace upon us.

Now I'm writing this.
Just to tell you.
as I love you but couldn't
no I just couldn't say it.

I hope this letter is enough,
greatly to express my feeling.
I'm playing safe now.
I won't take risk.

Dee

Dee texted me on the second day of our LI.

Dee:
Wei mcmna li? D
manala ko tnggl?

Dee:
Sy d sni tampoi
utma, tggal d pulai
utma. Teda jg, sja2
tnya. Mcamnala ko
p li..Jauh jg tu..

Gerard:
Pulai utma rumah
pastor? Sia di
tmpat kami XXX
tggal dlu. sia
guna bas. 2 bas
tp kalau x sempat
sia tidur sana
rumah setinggan.
haha asal boleh
idup. Ba dee-kalau
ada plan ujung mggu kastau. tp
sia kerja sabtu.
sbab mau jaga site
kan. Fashion show
pun kastau. Kau
apa kabar? apala
Kerja kau?

Dee:
Bkan, sy tggl d
ruma bro dkat dgn
giant tman u. sy ok
jg ni. Ko mcamna?
Sy d pjbt ja ni skrg
kna suru fham prjk
yg dorg bt bru kna
hntr p site. Ko
apala krja kna bg?
Ba nti sy kshtau
klu ada plan hjng
mggu. Sy pn krja
hri sbtu. tp stngh
hri jala. Fshn show
31 mei nti..

Gerard:
Sia pun duduk2 ja
di ofice kmarin.
Baru kna antar p
site hari ni. O dpan
giant? Uina, ada
charles and jephra
juga sana tu.
Anyway skrg sia
buat formwork
utk stump Dee,
kau perna dgr
PDA-Pile data
analysis?

Dee:
Bkan yg di dpn
giant. yg sblh kri
giant, lalu 2 trffc
light lg..Sy x prnh
bt o 2 PDA.. Ko jam
bpa msuk sma blik
kja?

Gerard:
8am-5.30pmm. lama
kan, rehat jam
1-2pm! haha. tu
kontraktor ckp
utm teruk tdak
ajar PDA..
Kemarin sia
kana suru kira
concrete, gila,
sia bantai trus
p tana engineer
dan qS ni.
Haha.

Dee:
Lbh krng smala
kta. tp sy stat
8.30am-5.30pm.
Rhat 12.30 smpi
1.30. Sy pn kna
mrah ni kmrn p
bca newspapr tme
kja..Borng ni,kna
suru bca file
projek..Ko blik
skudai ka hri ni?

Gerard:
Haha, sia pun
baca news smpai
tidur2 lg tapuk2.
Kau kena bg site
plan ka. Balik
napa dee ada
plan?

Dee:
Ada sy kna bt tp
prjk yg lma
pnyala. kna suru
tgok..Teda jg grad. blum da plan
lg..

Gerard:
Oh yaka. Ok ja,
jgn lupa, blajar VB.
K. Tetau bila kita
bulih jumpa
dr Shahrin ni.
Blajar ja la.

At that nite, Dee invite me to go out but heaven no I don't want and I can't-very far...maybe next time.

Thursday, May 29, 2008

Sheena SMS....WOW!

She called me when I was in the office doing some calculations. At first she greet asallamualaikum, the ask 'is this Mr.President?'. I was confuse and just answered yes. She called up her name but I couldn't hear it properly and i hung up because I was in the office...

then I texted her:

Gerard:Ya-saya lupa.
Teruk kan. Sia x
dpt ingt suara kau
juga. Sori. Saya
kerja ni. Practical
skrg di office.

Sheena:oh sori, actualy sia
call td mo invite ko
dtg pg wed
reception sia d le
meridian hotel on
7th june..:)

Gerard: Adoi, thanks.
Haha...baru sia igt
kau Sheena. Sori
gia sia d jb ni li
sampai july. Nda
dpt la. Ya ba mr
presiden ni haha.
kau tau juga. Sory
x3

Sheena:Ko ni can suda lupa
kawan hehe, bah
nda pa kalo mcm
tu..have a nice
day!!

Gerard:Sorix3, sia punya
phone kena curi
oleh badut jahat.
So ni phone baru
and sia claim no
balik. Ilang number
kau. Tdi sia dgr
kau ckp nama 'lina'
ba. Haha. Silap dgr.
biasala di pjbt sia
takut2 ba. 1st day
juga ni. Ba
Sheena. Kau
kahwin bgus2 aaa,
jd bride yg paling
cantik di dunia. ish
rugi la sia x pg ni.

Sheena:Oh macm tu pula
cerita..its ok
Gerard, sia pun
greet ko
asalamualaikum
juga bah
td,hehe..by the
way thanks. :).

Missed her so much...

Monday, May 26, 2008

Battle of the band,.

Hi Im glad to see u in the church. Although I felt awkward but i tried to cool down. I dun mind for you didn't help my band although i asked for it. I never care anymore. Glad so much to see how great is the band u guys had formed. Congratulations for winning 3rd place. I know it's a lil' late to greet this.

Anyway I wish to say something. I'm the new president of GIFT now. Just got voted just now. Although I have problem as you know, but i feel that i still want to serve my best to GOD. I know my weaknesses and already accepted for I am. I won't struggle my self to be somebody but i only tell the trusted friend. I had stop thinking of changing as long as I don't do something disgusting. Cause attempthing to change only made me even suffer and disturbed very much. And by that way, I never blame God, who loves me so much.

Im happy to be myself. I knew we will never be like last time. And I also had stopped hoping for that. But Thank God for the very great lil' time (1 year) that he gave me the chances to know you. I had the most meaningful and enjoy period in my life. You had brough a big impact to my life. All that moment will I remember, never diminish.

God Bless You.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Willie Boy - SMS about his internship.

Willie was the first person to text me asking how was I doing with my internship.

Willie:Haha..baru mau start ni bsok. tension o. Ko cam mana?

Gerard:bsuk juga. memang tension juga, bulum tau tmpat dia lg tu, Damn Sia stay di rumah si kath lagi yag dulu tu. Tp xda member. tulah tension.

Willie:Ko Li d mana la?

Gerard:Si Li di J.B. Kau kerja ka ujung mggu? Saya isnin jumaat ja. tension. napa kau tension oo haha

Willie:Bos sy tmpt li 2 lectr sy.cerewet gila..bikin panas

Gerard: Haha..Bagus tu. lama2 dia jd kawan kau tu. Kau bulih urus ba tu. jgn takut.

On the first day of Internship
Willie:Mcm mana Li ko?
Gerard: Boring, betul. Hahah. 1st day guna bas and masuk orientasi and duduk dari pukul 9.30am smpai skrg. Tggu tu site engineer dtg utk handtar sia p site. Jau ni tmpt dia. kau?

Willie: x bt pa2 ni. ngantuk gila ni...dorg bg drawing pas2 suruh tgk dr td sampai skr.
Willie: Haha..dorg bg1 kompter ni. nasib la ada internet..Hehe..ya sy tggu tym rehat ja ni...haha

Willie:Huhu another boring day. Ko pa cam? Ada p site la smlm?

Few day later
Willie:Pa mcm ko? Ok ka LI?

Gerard:Sori tlupa! ok2 la. kena tanya2, bnyk sia x pandai jawab. kau? Pinter, sia jatuh teruk ni sem, Adui Gitu rajin sia.

Willie:Keluar da ka result ko?

Gerard: Yup baru senarai tampai, tp sidah kira. kamu lum ka?

Willie: Blum lg. bru ja abis mggu xam ni...

Gerard:O ba..sia ni sem. 2.XX. harp kau dapt yang terbaik. mcma LI kau?

Willie: Teruk o. bt sy makin benci ni melayu...

Gerard: Ops..lek kau ba! apa yg terjadi O?

Willie: Suma muslim ni. berat sebelah ni...

Gerard: ba kau suant ja ba. haha. harap kau dpt kc settle la.

Willie:2 la2...boring btl ni mcm org lutsinar ja sy sana...

Gerard: ba kau p mengurat la tu perempuan. teda kerja kan!Sial juga. Actually sia pun rasa kena buang di satu tmpt yg sudah delay lama ni. then masuk lumpur2.kerja dgn indon dan bangla. kena surh tggal d rumah sewa yg mcm d sinsuran dulu tu. tp ada juga blajar la. Napa kau x minta kerja?! Sia cabar kau p minta kerja la nanti isnin.

Willie: Haha...suda bnyk kali la sy minta keja. yg sy kana bg kerja2 draftman bodo ni.

Gerard: Will apa kau buat skrg? ada sudah tu malayu bg kau kerja? apa tu dratman.

Willie: kira loading pile cap ni. dia x tau pa lg keja mo bg.mcm 2torial saja...

Gerard:Bhgian consultant gitu la ba kan! Org lain kana bg kerja apa? ui na sia skrg di site lagi la, jd mandur. X buat apa2 tinguk ja. tgk pekerja indo dan bangla. x ???. kerja bnyk delayni pile silap pasang. Lol.

Gerard: Kau ada kerja sudah ka?

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Internship

too bad I just don't know what to write.
I am having my internship at Johore
Staying at Senior Kath House
Still doing find...
I don't know
feeling bad
lonesome
help
bye
no
I

Thursday, April 24, 2008

exam

So I f i don't get A for this subject. I will appeal for mark checking.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

the PRESIDENT.

So I am the NEW PRESIDENT OF Catholic Student society of Universiti teknologi Malaysia alias GIFT (growing in faith together.)
It's a big deal for me and the society members. the new excos and I will lead all others christian to new journey for next semester. this blog is going to be part of my life in GIFT. I just can't wait to operate next semester.

FlashBack before I become a President

Chapter 1
I was in first year in my study.
i felt so alienated by the new culture.
I don't have real friend.
I am all alone trying to survive.

Thanks to my second family.
My aunts whom support me.
My cousins who were my buddies.
But that's nor University.

In this big university.
I was so lonely and all by myself.
"I don't like this place"
I uttered everyday

Worst Expectation ever.
never thought such beginning.
no chanting, whatever coming.
I will have to move on.

to break this lonesomeness
I joined Aiesecs and Choir.
cool, but not that much
then a somone came

Chapter 2

Who? it's the IK.
it's Nicki i still remember
He came sith invitation.
Invite me to a church.

I was as happy as kid.
thought this is the right.
guess what? heaven no.
it's a calvary church.

no offends on other denomination.
but I know I couldn't.
I love the new friends.
but I just couldn't

from there I realized.
I need to go to chuch.
where? how? i don't know.
Erik saved my year.

it was jimmy invited us.
there's a bus were chartered.
it's for us to go to church.
meeting new faces again.

chapter 3
it's all sabahan and sarawakian.
I'm kind of surprise.
the crowd they made in the bus.
before we reached the church.

Well! it doesn't seem like one.
a shop lot of church.
a catholic church.
how symphathetic.

not in 20 years to see this.
a very small catholic church.
the mass was like usual.
but at least I knew a church.

after mass, time for dinner.
ok, i just follow.
eat and drink together.
but I don't feel enjoy.

seriously, i felt weird.
i don't feel belong to them.
maybe I'm new.
but I got such feeling.

Chapter 4
After that, I was worried.
I felt not to go to church again.
then there was me.
living like a Godless person.

but after some months.
I went for church.
this time they got ICG.
A camp in Genting, i join in.

michele helped to pay some fees.
thank to cute michele.
I'll always remember.
you and your kindness.

getting to know more people.
they called themself GIFT.
What the heck is that.
I didn't know and didn't care.

there was ICG briefing.
and indian cleopatra-hair brief.
she briefed badly.
She was Anne beatrice.

Chapter 5
the next week I come to mass.
they had confirm seats of bus.
journey to ICG Genting by bus.
I got the morning travelling.

OMG, no, i'll be at malacca.
........to be continue.

Sunday, April 20, 2008

My blog

I am glad to write again
but I found out that I can't hardly figure out what to write. i felt my life's boring now.
So I browse into my old entries. It's cool. I don't remembered that I had such a colourful life.
I hope I can be as enthusiastic as last time.

GOOD NEWS

Today....

I manage to claim my old blog from Blogger.com
A friend finally decided to settle our fight since last semester
I manage to finish my hardest assignment on time.

So here I am going blogging again.

Friday, May 19, 2006

after so long...

I can't online here in my Aunt house... a lot of thing happen but I had no mood to jot them down. I tried to find job for this still long holiday. but none suit me. Had to get one sooner.Now I am in Speed Cyber Cafe with Lance and Louis...damn, rm3 per hour.

Sunday, April 16, 2006

Civilization...

I just finished the TITAS exam. It's a tiring paper because of the confusing answer option given. but talking about civilization or tamadun in Malay, there's a few question mentioned about the Civilizing Malaysia. I am wondering wether it brought goodness to the Sabahan etnics, like me. So what am I? My Father is pure Dusun of Tambunan whilst my mother is Kadazan-sino of Inanam (according to my Aunt, Kadazan-sino means more to kadazan instead of Chinese ). So, I'm Dusun. What is that?

I had done few research from various pages and I found some explanation of introduction to Kadazan/Dusun. I'll just cut and paste what I had read from the net.

source: http://www.flw.com/languages/kadazan.htm
Kadazan
Kadazan (Kadazanusan) has several dialects and is spoekn by the Dusun/Kadazan people of Malaysia. There are about 50 indigenous languages of Sabah, all belonging to the Austronesian language family. These languages vary in size from several hundreds to over one hundred thousand speakers. Most of the languages of Sabah belong to one of four subgroups: Bajau (Sama-Bajau), Dusunic, Murutic and Paitanic. The Kadazandusun language belongs to the Dusunic subgroup.

Dusun/Kadazan group is the largest indigenous group in Sabah. They are actually a collectivity of ethnic groups speaking similar languages and dialects as well as having similarities in culture and traditional beliefs. Within this group there exists at least 10 distinct languages with possibly 30 or more dialects. There are some people of this Dusun/Kadazan group who prefer to call themselves Dusun, while others particularly in the Penampang/Papar areas prefer the term Kadazan

Source : http://rymza.blogdrive.com/archive/97.html
Kadazandusun (a.k.a 'Kadus'):

* The largest ethnic group in Sabah, making up 1/3 of the state population.

* Out from 0.8 million Kadus-es all over the world, less than 50% can speak their native language.

* From those 0.4 million (rough estimation) who can speak Kadus, 75% of them are over 40 y.o.

* Less than 5% of those under 25 y.o can speak the language.

* Due to its extreme complexity (in terms of grammar, syntax and semantic), Kadus Language is almost impossible to be taught effectively at schools (using formal and conventional method). It must be nurtured at home, naturally.

Source :http://www.multilingual-matters.net/cilp/001/0415/cilp0010415.pdf#search='kadazan%20dusun'
It's a PDF file. The point of this article is about Kadazan/Dusun Language.

There are 138 language in Malaysia, of which 54 are indigenous to Sabah (Grimes, 1996)
13 indigenous languages are classified under the Dusunic language family.
...according to the 1999 Sabah census projection, speakers of kadazan /dusun ethnicity should have numbered 7500,00 by 2000-making it the largest single language community in the State.
Kadazan/Dusun speaker are mainly ofund along the west coast of Sabah and also extending some distance inland.(Banker & Banker,1984)
According to Banker & Banker (1984), this language consists of a chanin of dialects that are reasonably understood bye neighbouring communites. But because the language differs in varying degrees, it maybe difficult for one end of the chain to communicate to the other.
Bahasa Malaysia, the national language of Malaysia since 1963 (Omar, 1984), was selected on the basis of having the greates number of speakers - at the time the Malay people made up more than half of the population of peninsular Malaysia. However, Sabah with 80% of it's population consist of the indigenous ethnic.
Kadazan/Dusun-beginning, the penampang populace - south-east of the capital Kota kinabalu - was first introduced to literacy through the school-building by Mill Hill Missionaries early 1880 s. Despite the establishment was interupted during WWII, it is resiliently set up again after war. It's known as Native Voluntary Schools in 1960 s.
They appealed to the local Kadazan and Dusun folk because they `opted to teach literacy to rural folk initially through their local Kadazan or Dusun Dialect only shifting gradually by the third or fourth yeat in English' (Reid ,1997)
The language underwent vast developments post-war. The year 1953 saw the Language had been introduced in the all-English newspaper Sabah Times. the followed by the Radio Sabah and massive publication of literature.
During the Nationalisme era (after joining Malaya in 1963), Mother-tongue developent went into decline as ephasis was put on the acquisition of the national language, Bahasa Malaysia(Now they called it Bahasa Melayu.) To safeguard social and economic interests as well as to assist assimilation into the fast-growing Malaysian culture, Kadazan/Dusun Parents had begun to allow the use of the Malay language in the home.
This did more harm than good when code-mising became evident, slowly removing the need to converse in the mother tongue. (Lasimbang, 1996)
The now-apparently loss had only begun to be identified in the realy 1980 s. By then, the infiltration of 'broken' Kadazan and Dusun songs into the music industry had added further damage to the situation. Their fun and catchy tunes belied the growing disparaging view held against mother-tongue use by many Kadazan/Dusun speakers.
Therefore, as has happened in the many other languages situations around the world(Mulhlhausler,1996), modernisation and developement has meant that the ecology of the kadazan /Dusun language chains was breaking down and powerful new languages were entereing that ecology (Bahasa Malaysia and English).

Opps... Maybe I had gone too detail. I'll try to make is as short as possible. (ASAP)

Common Language/etchnic, nor could they agree to the labels outsider had for them. Since language labellin gworks only if members of a grop open to it , the not un-alike Kadazan and Dusun communities had to conted with the continuing pressure to arrive at a single way of identirying themselves.
By the 1960's it become obvious that this dilemma was also causing problems for the preservation of the mother tongue. While the desire for the mother-tongue education was central to bothe communities, the touchy subject of identify - whether Kadazan or Dusun created confusion as to how to go about the matter.
Finally in 1985 there was a break through with the crucial decisions being taken on the orthography and in in 1995, the standardisation of dialects materalised.
With that, a close approach to a wider group identify was archieved.
But it's a hard process as to educate Kadazan language in school which were also the dream of the Kadazan/Dusun must gone through the standardisation of various dialect of the Dusunic dialect.
after the standardised process was done, a labelling matters occured wether to label as Dusun or Kadazan.
In Sept 1990, various fruitless effort on forwarding the Kadazan Language in school. Then in 1994 when a Honourable Tan Sri Bernard G. Dompok, began seriously pursuing the matter.
By that time, Kadazan Language was taught in private class, later on under the pressure by YB Tan Sri Bernard G. Dompok had manage to start a Kadazan Language class in April 1995.
However, the labelling problem still occured. But eventually the Sabah Education Department played the mediator for the two cultural custodians - the Kadazan Dusun Cultural Association and the United Sabah Dusun Association - on deciding the name of the standard language that was taught in schools. And after some compromise, the term 'Kadazandusun' was chosen as the official name of the shared language.
In 2000, the Kadazandusun language was being taught to 19731 children by 881 trained teachers., 440 primary schools in 21 districts throughout the State of Sabah.

Yeah some brief story of the Kadazandusun language...more details, After reading the whole article, i had in mind that the Kadazandusun Language may had gone through a big development in the . But from my experienced, I can see this language is still in danger. More and more of my Kadazan or Dusun friend can't speak this language... are those effort mentioned by the article above fail? or maybe the situation for 20 years ago were worst and now we are pursued to be proud because of this 'little' development.

Go back to the spirit of my entry, language had a big role in civilization because of it importance. Language show the identity of one culture. Ok see this, since Bahasa Malaysia had become the major language in Sabah, at the same time Sabah also going through the civilization process in the name of Malaysia. I wondering to like it or not. will harm the Sabahan tribes as it had done by language previously until now? Where are the Kadazan Dusun identity?

Source : http://www.absoluteastronomy.com/reference/kadazan

Kadazan

The meaning of the word 'Kadazan' in english means 'the people'.The Kadazan/Dusun is the largest ethnic group in Sabah. Sabah (with Sarawak) is part of the Federation of Malaysia.The ansector of the Kadazan/Dusun people are farmers.The word 'Kadazan' is used largely by the more educated Dusun people to describe themselves. It is used mostly in the Penampang and Papar area.

Language

The Kadazan/Dusun language is a dying language. All of the public school in Sabah does not teach the Kadazan/Dusun language. This is also due to the fault of the Kadazan/Dusun themselves who view their language as outdated and prefer to speak in the Malay language.There is significant different between the Malay language in Peninsular Malaysia and the Malay language use in Sabah.The Malay language used in Sabah are mostly influence by the Kadazan/Dusun language. Example "Celaka" in the official Malay language is "Silaka" in the Sabahan Malay language.

Make a deduction, the the new generation can't speak their mother tongue, what would happen to their race identity? Lost swallowed by other identity...ermmm. Yeah one more, Sabah now are called as one of the State in Malaysia. But according to the Malaysians History, it is a part Federation of Malaysia. I think She, Land below the wind should be more than just a state.

well, here's long pasted document from Wikipedia...http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kadazan

Kadazans are the major subgroup in the ethnic group Kadazan-Dusun, who collectively, are the largest ethnicity indigenous to Sabah, Malaysia. They are found mainly on the west coast of Sabah, surrounding locales and various locations in the interior.

Being an indigenous people, the Kadazans are inferred the same political, educational and economic rights as the predominant Malay population of Malaysia. The term ascribed to this is Bumiputra, a Malay word, which is translated to 'Sons of the Land'.

While Kadazan was an official designation for this ethnic group, it is widely believed that the term itself was a political derivative that came into existence in the late 50's to early 60's. No proper historical record exists pertaining to the origins of the term or its originator. However an article written by Richard Tunggolou (available on the Kadazandusun Cultural Association website) on this matter may shed some light. According to Mr. Tunggolou, most of the explanations of the meanings and origins of the word ‘Kadazan’ assumed that the word was of recent origin––specifically in the late 1950’s and early 1960’s––as assumed in the explanations for its origin from ‘kakadazan’ (towns), ‘kedai’ (shops), and from the claim that Kadazan politicians such as the late Datuk Peter J. Mojuntin coined the term. In fact, the word ‘Kadazan’ is not of recent origin. Owen Rutter, in his book, “The Pagans Of North Borneo”, published in 1929, wrote: “The Dusun usually describes himself generically as a tulun tindal (landsman) or, on the West Coast, particularly at Papar, as a Kadazan.” (page 31). Owen Rutter worked in Sabah for five years as District Officer in all five residencies and left Sabah with the onset of the First World War. This means that he started working in Sabah from 1910 and left Sabah in 1914. We can therefore safely say that the word ‘Kadazan’ was already in existence before any towns or shops were built in the Penampang District and that Kadazan politicians did not invent the word in the late fifties and early sixties. Thus, the most likely explanation for the term ‘Kadazan’ is that it means ‘the people’.

Presently, the Kadazans are associated together with another similar indigenous tribe, the Dusuns and various other indigenous peoples, under the blanket term Kadazan-Dusun. This is officially recognised as the result of political machinations, specifically, a resolution of the supposedly non-political 5th KCA (Kadazan Cultural Association, which was then renamed to Kadazan-Dusun Cultural Association (KDCA)) Delegates Conference held between November 4 and November 5, 1989. It was decided as the best alternative approach to resolve the "Kadazan" or "Dusun" identity crisis that had crippled and impeded the growth and development of the Kadazan-dusun multi-ethnic community socio-culturally, economically and politically - ever since Kadazanism versus Dusunism sentiments were politicized in the early 1960's.

Kadazans and Dusuns share the same language and culture, albeit with differences in dialect. Many consider the major difference between the two ethnic groups to be their traditional geographical influences. Kadazans are mainly inhabitants of the flat valley deltas, conducive to paddy field farming, while Dusuns are traditionally inhabitants of the hilly and mountainous regions common to the interior of Sabah.

Religion and Culture
Before the influence of the British missionaries in the mid 19th century that resulted in Christianity rising to prominence amongst Kadazans, animism was the predominant religion. It revolved around the belief that spirits ruled over the planting and harvesting of rice, a profession that had been practiced for generations. Special rituals would be performed before and after each harvest by a tribal priestess known as a bobohizan.

Kadazan culture is heavily influenced by the farming of rice, culminating in various delicacies and alcoholic drinks prepared through differing home-brewed fermentation processes. Tapai and lihing are the main rice wine variants served and consumed in Kadazan populated areas, and are a staple of Kadazan social gatherings and ceremonies.

Besides food and drink, the Kadazans also developed their own unique dance and music. Sumazau is the name of the dance between a male and female, performed by couples as well as groups of couples, which is usually accompanied by a symphony of handcrafted bronze gongs that are individually called 'tagung'. A ceremonial ring of cloth sash is worn by both male and female. The Sumazau and gong accompaniment is typically performed during joyous ceremonies and occasions, the most common of which being wedding feasts.
Contemporary Kadazan food is heavily influenced by Chinese cuisine, with unique modifications and nuances as well as particular usage of locally available foodstuffs, particularly bamboo shoots, sago and fresh water fish, which is pickled. Water buffalo meat is a major staple food and the animals are highly prized assets, which are a typical requirement of wedding dowries.
Dowries are paid to the bride's family and an elaborate negotiation is arranged between the groom and bride's families. As a traditional gesture of politeness and civility, the dowry is metaphorically laid out with match sticks on a flat surface, with a representative from each side pushing and pulling the sticks across a boundary to denote the bargaining of the dowry. Dowries traditionally consisted of water buffaloes, pigs, sacks of rice and even urns of tapai. Modern dowry negotiations also include cash and land ownership deeds. Kadazan women from the Tambunan, Penampang and Tuaran areas are widely regarded to have the most expensive dowries.
While it is traditionally customary for Kadazans to marry within a village or a neighbouring village, a change of xenophobic attitudes over the past few decades has eased the difficulty once associated with inter-racial marriage. The Kadazans have a particularly good affinity with the local Chinese and this has resulted in the coinage of the term Sino-Kadazan, which is a phrase used to describe the half Kadazan, half Chinese offspring of such unions. Due to the overwhelming Christian influence, marriage to muslim spouses, which results in a mandatory conversion to Islam, still induces outrage and rejection, and is known to divide fiercely traditional Kadazans. Of late, Islam has been embraced by a growing minority as a means to political ends considering the fact that the local Malay minority has gained political ascendance in recent years.
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Language
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The Kadazan language is an amalgation of various influences, mainly coming from other indigenous tribes in North Borneo and the adoption of various Malay words. According to legend, the Kadazan language has its roots in the migration of a band of seafaring Chinese from Southern China. Anecdotes describe a provincial Chinese tribe whose language differs greatly with the common Chinese dialects but bears striking similarities to the Kadazan language; a tribe whom purportedly bear a physical resemblance to Kadazans as well. However, no research or concrete evidence has risen to support these claims although it is supported by authoritative figures in the Kadazan community.

As in many countries with a singly dominant language, the use of the Kadazan language has been on the decline for the last few decades. As a result, Malay is spoken fluently by most, if not all Kadazans, although English is spoken fluently by more Kadazans than any other ethnic group, due to the influence of British missionaries. With the decline of the usage of the Kadazan language, the Sabah state government introduced policies with the objective of preventing the extinction of the vernacular languages of many of its numerous small ethnic groups and has, in the past decade, encouraged public schools in Sabah to start teaching the Kadazan language, among other indigenous dialects. With this initiative, a concerted effort was also made to officialise the Kadazan language and standardise its written form.
Kadazan language belongs to Malayo-Polynesian languages branch of Austronesian language family.
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Language sample (prayer)
(1) Tama za doid surga apantang daa oh ngan nu koikot oh Perintah nu kaandak nu adadi doiti id Tanah miga doid Surga. Pataako dagai oh takanon za do tadau diti om pohiongo dagai oh douso za miaga dagai do popohiong di nakahasa doid dagai kada zikoi pohogoso doid ponginaman katapi pahapaso zikoi do mantad ngaaci do kalaatan. Amen. (2) Ave Maria, nopunu' do graasia, miampai diau o kinoingan, obitua ko do id saviavi' tondu, om obitua o tuva' tinan nu Jesus. Sangti Maria, tina' do kinoingan pokiinsianai zikoh tu' tuhun do mominiduso, baina om ontok jaam do kapatazon za. Amen.
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Translation
(1) Our father, which art in heaven, hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. For thine is the kingdom and the power and the glory for ever and ever. Amen. (2) Hail Mary, full of grace. The Lord is with thee. Blessed are thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God. Pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen.

It's been so long I never heard Our Father in KadazanDusun. Ok let me go straight to my little more point. Indeed the Kadazan/Dusun indigenous (Kadazan, Dusun, Murut, Sungai and Rungus) ethnic had a great memorable unique and beautiful cultures. But I think due to some irreversable, impreventable, the lack of civillized properties and certain circumtances , the Kadazan Dusun with it lack of historical story can't independantly reach the glory of peak of civilization. ermmm....there's more to write but it just too much....

TITAS...

17 Apr 2006, Monday...8:30am

So half an hour later I'll be sitting my TITAS paper...the exam hall is very near to the library, I stop awhile and had an update on my blog...

TITAS (Islamic and Asian Civilization 1) is a 2 credit hour subject which it's exam will be onjectively questioned. It's thought by Cik Akmaliza bt Abdullah, whom sometimes i argued with about Islam and Christianity (most of the time she start it first). I had my revision yesterday by reading the lecturer's note on the internet...

I had checked my carry Mark for TITAS...i had 50 mark out of 60...glad. whatever the result is, final is still the determinant to know the absolute result. ermmm....

Saturday, April 15, 2006

Easter Season...

start with the ash wednesday...
Lent season as preparation...
we lived on the 40 days of fasting...
we rejoice with Palm on Sunday...
welcoming Him on a donkey...
then come the monte Thursday...
He washed the disciples feet...
Had The Last Supper with them...
One of them betrayed Him...
as it was written in the scriptures...
Him instead of Barabas cruxified...
we sinners had sent him for cruxifiction...
He died on Good Friday and was buried...
on the Third days, He rose again...
Alleluia!, glory to the Son of God...
a good news, our faith renew...
Happy Easter day,Jesus had risen...
Happy are those who believes...
as you have eternal live...
as the good news proclaimed...
and with love which conquer deaths.

Friday, April 14, 2006

Study week...

15 April 2006 2:22 p.m.
Virginionia's Condition: Dying (Power supply problem! another one! It's a reminder for me to do revision not playing games.)

so my exam started on 17 Apr 2006

17 Apr TITAS

19 Apr Applied Mechanics

20 Apr Fluid Mechanics

25 Apr Diffrential Equations.

So my plan is to keep on study and do a lot of practices. later after Fluid Mechanics 20th I'll go back to my Aunt House with my stuff by cab and study Differential Equations there. ermm Aunty Kath is going back on the 26th, It's better for me to go back early. Then on the 24th or 25th I'll go back to UTM to finish up my last paper...

Sunday, April 09, 2006

before study week...

Now, Study week had started...I hope I can do my last minute revision with my friends and also alone. But at this moment, I am at my Aunt's room (Aunty Jay). We, at johore had visitors...Aunty Kath and uncle Alex(Aunty Flocy's boyfriend) and also surprisingly Ideline (Idel is my cousin, previously she became singer as a career in a hotel).

Actually I reached here since Thursday (6 Apr) because they'll arrive on (7 Apr midnight), I wanted to lend a hand in the house cleaning work...But I have to go back to Taman U for GIFT planning camp on Saturday which start on Friday...(GIFT is a UTM Roman Catholic student group, I had become one of the Exco-Faith Department under the president...) Meaning, I had the 'visitors' as a reason not to come on Friday. But after considering time and Barbecue in Taman Molek which they'll have it on Saturday night, I switched my plan to come on Friday until Saturday afternoon and skip the Saturday till Sunday session...

So I have a great fun in SCC with the GIFT exco's...then wearily exhousted walking under the grizzling rain to get bus going to Taman Molek on Saturday afternoon.

When I reached there, I saw Uncle Alex and Aunty Flocy playing badminton, Louis and Lora having fun with the neighbour, Uncle Law and Aunty also here, Aunty Jay was in the room, Janet together with Jill was here and also Idel and we start our first word with 'aik', Aunty Kath frying the chicken ermmm Barbecue was cancelled due to the wet barbecue set according to Louis... So they had KFC (Kath's Fried Chicken), some roasted chicken, some salad and also hot chillie for dinner, I didn't eat meat due to self control for Lent Season...So I fried some Egg and eat with Salad what a 'Fault' combination. Oh yeah, My mum enclosed one parcel to Aunty Kath. It was a some traditional snacks also Catholic Sabah and PTPTN document. I got it and eat it some...

yeah...then later on they opened table...open table to play Jin Rum Mee...more people coming. Aunty Angie and Uncle Neal, Ian, Steven, Aunty Ann and Uncle Calextus and Also the Five C's- Courtney (CC), Cassy, Cindy, Chelsea and Camelia ermm not to forget the hamster Camelia bought, Joe and Joel, Uncle Clay...yeah all of Sabahans in Johore gathered together... So what happened...

@ I can hardly find a seat but only upstair to rest.

@ The house was full.

@ Two table opened-another for Lap Lap Foo...

@ Lance and Louis had more chance to play Dota...

@ They had beer while gambling and chatting and maybe bullying...

@ Lots of stupid Joke from the brilliant Uncle Nel...

@ Uncle Calextus force me to drink-I decline' by accepting' then didn't drink-it's Lent Season!...

@ Don't know why the roasted chicken wasn't finished...

@ The children had fun outside...

@ It was a joyful gathering ever in Johore...ermmmmm

everything ended earlier then I thought(3.00 am) because Aunty Flocy wanted to sleep...some going back, some still stay but going out to eat heavy supper and some sleep like me...I was very tired lorrrr !

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

My Computer (Eventually, Not end yet!)

eventually
(problem never end....)

tuuuuuuuuuuuttt.....tuuuuuuuuuuuttt....tuuuuuuuuutttt

I think this was one of test given to me by God during Lent Seasons. Virginio and Virginia lost their memory again......The irritating noise made by the computer shows that the new DDRAM got problem again. Lost control and temper, I curse out loud..............!!!!!!!!!!!!

I tried using brendan cable but still nothing happened. Switching off the computer, I fall off my self on my bed, full of frustration and sadly wondering......

Why do I have to end up like this ....Lord Jesus Christ, gives me the strength to stay faithful to you.