Purpose 4: Family and friend.

This would be another reason of blogging which i label as family and friends. as what it is labels, I will write anything about my family and also friends.

Currently I am staying with 4 most trusted person in JB. Jimmy, Kath, Kath and Ham. Ham is the newbie in our house. We rented this house and it's very nice besides some of the defect. Here are some of the role in our home:

Kath: Tuai Rumah.
Kath: Breakfast
Me: Nobody
Jim: Cook
Ham: Newbie.

All of us are working in the professional fields. We are actually struggle to live far from home but i believe each of us doing our best for our future. On the other hands, despite the busy working life, we are actually try to rock the house every chance we had. That's the story I want to write about.

Our most recent activity-Mosquito Killing Spree Campaign.

Purpose 3: Faith

Do I 100% believe in God? Yes. But do I follow 100% of God's will? Sadly no. I bet you if it's 100% then I am not human being. Am not perfect. Perfect is boring, human being is interesting. It's hard to be Christian. A real true Christian. it's not easy to carry the cross.


My reflex myself and knew that my faith sometimes strong and most of the time weak. Sadly but true. I am still on my long journey finding God. I am looking my purpose of life.

Once in secondary 1, My homerun teacher asked what is my ambition. I hesitate that time cause I know i don't feel like i want to be anyone. I just don't know. But the teacher insist. Then I got the thought and said I want to be a politician, teacher and PRIEST. But as I grow up along the journey with God, I don't feel much interested to be Priest. LOL.

So my purpose of this blog is to write anything in my daily life or previous event that related to my faith.  One of the thing i want to mention here is about my friends in GIFT.  It is the Catholic Student Society in UTM. although I am no longer a student, i loves joining and being around with them.  I am very grateful for being gifter as it really makes my life as a student worthful.  GIFT really makes me the person I am today and I believe this is GOD's will.

One of the most memorable moment with GIFT.

Purpose 2:Engineering.

Engineering?  yup Inginieur.

Do i want to be an IR? Yes but not now. I got only a little knowledge in civil engineering. I need to be like a sponge, absorb all the practical knowledge from all the time I am working now.  

Catwalk at site

I start working since 10 August 2009, now it had been more the 1 year. Thanks to Ir Law Kok Hong, my project manager whom accept me with RM1400/month as starting.  I am still humble towards all the consultants and the clients.  my work involve 3D. Dangerous, Dirty and Degrading.  yes and sadly but it still money making and provide bread to most of the foreign worker.

Standing at 11th floor of Block F

At this moment, I am into management of site. less into design. but management is really crucial in my company cause it really lack of it.  In my office, we have come and go site supervisor, 1 good coordinator, 1 loyal clerk, 1 assistant purchaser, and me the engineer.  the QS mostly will come after afternoon, my project Manager only come on monday till thursday, my purchase manage will come to site office when necessary.  I love them all cause they really care bout each other and very helpful.  recently we had always plan thing together like giant sandwich making and also the upcoming steamboat.

I had met a lot type of human being here.  Mostly con people. yeah!   One more problem with this site is that, my boss (the owner of the company) does not trust anyone in the company regardless how long have you been working here.  He was always be at site monitoring the job which is not proper as he seem to be not a technical person.  He can do anything he want whether its wrong or right. Mostly wrong.  I don't care cause he just don't want to listen or trust me. I had heard that he did not fully pay the sub contractors but keep on claiming to other people that the sub contractor had received more. 

The unfinished bussiness of Block C.

Our site situation right now seems to be the worst. the Client does not pay my boss and my boss told me in person that he had used up his millions money.  All major work are halt and only minor work like apron drain, pit cover, housekeeping are done daily. it had been about a month.  my coordinator keep pushing all the supervisors to do their job. most of the machinery got nothing to do. Only the rented JCB and Excavator moving around.  but I still think that its such a bad situation cause all cost of rental and workers are still counted regardless whether they really do work or not.

Playing with the excavator

I had a doubt that I will not get my salary this month, i am scared cause I might not be able to go back home for Christmas.  This late afternoon, my coordinator told me that my Project manager had resigned but I still can call him if i need anything. Damn! the only person that i can count to had resigned, I was wondering what am i doing here!?

Purpose 1: Modeling

It's kinda awkward and shameful most of the time if i say this to someone else but fo those who really care about me they will support me. Thanks them.  Because of them, I became brave enough to tell the world that...

I want to be a model.

not loud enough?

I want to be a MODEL!

Still can't hear me?  

I WANT TO BE A MODEL....!!!!

Secret

It's had always been my secret passion because i wasn't dare to tell anyone about it.  Another reason is that I felt that I am not tall enough to be the typical male model.  

I got few friends that I would like to mention here. number one is Andy Wee my school mate till secondary school. Once in an introductory of Economic class, Miss Debbie Goh our teacher asked what we want to be after finish study.  Then this guy Andy said "I want to be a steward...(pause a second)... model or I don't know".  wow, sincerely from his mind saying that. but when I asked him the next days, he didn't want to admit it. LOL...Andy is a tall  good looking guy that i know. I hope he really have the guts to chase his dream. (I think he had change his mind years after).

Second pArson that I want to talk about is Bartholomew whom I know since Matriculation in Labuan. During Uni life, we met during a ICG a catholic camp in Penang. He was very obsessed about the Janice Dickinson Modeling Agency reality show.  He once admit to me that he want to be a Model. But I know this guy,  Meo who claim to be 170cm tall is quite famous for being indecisive and mind changing pArson. So, just in a few months i had never heard of him talking about this show anymore. But he really start me to figure thing about modeling.

Third pArson is no one but my own Aunty...Auntie Ann. My sweet aunty who stay in JB right now.  She really have the model look, style and height and even walk.  Once i was staying with her family, she mentioned to me that she would one day send Casey one of her daughter to a nearby modeling agency. jokingly she said that if the agency would like to accept casey and also herself...she would gladly accept it.

There are more pArsons that I really wanna mention here...like my sisters Gail and Bella who have the passion to modeling, my friends in GIFT like Anthea and Bunga whom said that if they were tall enough they sure will go for modeling, Karlvin only admit when he drunk, Freddie whom have everything to be a model but hesitate to start...and more.  But few are enough I guess.

Challenges

There a few challenges for me to break through  my dream. My job - site engineer.  The commitment for this job really obstruct my commitment for modeling and also others. But it is also my income. I really have to figure out what to do in order not to jeopardize both my job and passion.  sometimes I wanna try to pause my job and get into modeling for few years then get back to engineering.  But I will wait till the right time comes.  

Another challenge that i need to take is that I am not tall enough. Not 6' but only 5'10". it's kinda hard for short male to get into this industry unless he is really attractive.  I have a friend name Syed from Malacca who is short about 5'6" but he manage to do modeling successfully.  He got a lot of modeling assignment despite being a student.  Another model that I just googled whose name is Edrenalin got 5'8" height but had been a phenomenal in Australia. I believe being model is not ONLY about the height but also how you brought yourself into the industry.

Syed

Edrenalin

Getting Started

How to start?  after knowing that this is what really I want, I am not going sit around and wait until I got any offer or found by model scout. I believe most of the supermodels was found by scout agent, some went to modeling school, some join the beauty pageant and some went to many agencies to get agent and more.   I am not that good I know. I need to put more effort if i really want to get this. It is not easy.  But first thing I need to do is initiation...I need to start soon.

New purpose of blogging...

Hello anyone here?

Hello world...(famous phrase for learning programming)

sup? (what's up)  now I got internet connection in my room, it make easier for me to blog.  all this while I was on and off and on blogging because it's kinda hard to get the time and internet connection for this blog. well this is my recent photo...people say I am getting some  fat and it far way better. I'm glad..

well this entry only written by me in order to inform the world that I had found a new purpose of blogging...see ya...